In the last few years, I've learned a lot from WorstGen/One Piece, and the community in general. Kuma in particularly has made me question a lot of things in life, and how I want to live.
In short, I'm pretty disgusted with my personal lifestyle. I don't take care of myself, my family, and I don't really have close friends, because I've been a shitty friend since high school. I have a lot of problems, and convince myself it's impossible for me to form close personal relationships because of it. Because of this, I push anyone away emotionally, and just haven't been able to build solid relationships.
While I love One Piece, I've come to focus on spoilers/theory more than even the series itself, and have used One Piece social media, and social media in general, to distract myself from my problems and the problems others face.
I have an addictive personality, and have been working to cut out alcohol and foods I'm addicted to. My health is better in a lot of areas than in the past, but I have a lot of health issues I've been ignoring. Our Dog is 14, now, and has sadly had a lot more health problems, so, I've been trying to spend less time online in general to take care of her, and, I need to help my family more in general.
I'm going to focus on cooking more, which I can do to a decent extent, and cleaning the house, too.
I want to get therapy, and learn to build real relationships based on trust/honesty. I'm sorry for ghosting people here often, I get a lot of anxiety/stress from basic communication sometimes, and it's something I'm going to work through with breathing exercises, a better diet, and actual behavioral therapy. I want to get involved with cleaning the community around me, and doing stuff like food drives. If my cooking ever gets better, make food for soup kitchens and whatnot.
Long story short, I've put social media over real life for too long, while ignoring plenty of people I care about on socials, too. To anyone/everyone I've been petty/absent towards, I'm sorry.
I haven't been there for myself, and I need to actually take care of myself, and change my health/economic habits.
Overall, I think a lot of truth about our world will come out soon, and make people question a lot of history.
Please, listen to your heart, not your anxiety/lust like I have too often. Believe in yourself, and don't sell yourself out.
I was a good dude when I was younger, but sold myself out to fit into society, and, ever since, I've been a gross imitation of who I used to be.
I'm tired of selling myself out. No matter what, we should never trade who we are, for anything. I want to live by the values I believe in, rather than just yapping about them.
So, I'll be off till at least the New Year, 1/1/26, and possibly until Spring, in late March/early April. We'll see how things go. When I return, I might stay away from Spoilers, too, because I just enjoy reading One Piece more without them.
Worst case scenario I get abducted by Aliens, and come back for Wano Act 4.
I want to be more like Kuma, and help life around me. Might go and meet some actual Monks, who knows.
Thanks everyone, ya'll stay frosty and crazy out there.
In short, I'm pretty disgusted with my personal lifestyle. I don't take care of myself, my family, and I don't really have close friends, because I've been a shitty friend since high school. I have a lot of problems, and convince myself it's impossible for me to form close personal relationships because of it. Because of this, I push anyone away emotionally, and just haven't been able to build solid relationships.
While I love One Piece, I've come to focus on spoilers/theory more than even the series itself, and have used One Piece social media, and social media in general, to distract myself from my problems and the problems others face.
I have an addictive personality, and have been working to cut out alcohol and foods I'm addicted to. My health is better in a lot of areas than in the past, but I have a lot of health issues I've been ignoring. Our Dog is 14, now, and has sadly had a lot more health problems, so, I've been trying to spend less time online in general to take care of her, and, I need to help my family more in general.
I'm going to focus on cooking more, which I can do to a decent extent, and cleaning the house, too.
I want to get therapy, and learn to build real relationships based on trust/honesty. I'm sorry for ghosting people here often, I get a lot of anxiety/stress from basic communication sometimes, and it's something I'm going to work through with breathing exercises, a better diet, and actual behavioral therapy. I want to get involved with cleaning the community around me, and doing stuff like food drives. If my cooking ever gets better, make food for soup kitchens and whatnot.
Long story short, I've put social media over real life for too long, while ignoring plenty of people I care about on socials, too. To anyone/everyone I've been petty/absent towards, I'm sorry.
I haven't been there for myself, and I need to actually take care of myself, and change my health/economic habits.
Overall, I think a lot of truth about our world will come out soon, and make people question a lot of history.
Please, listen to your heart, not your anxiety/lust like I have too often. Believe in yourself, and don't sell yourself out.
I was a good dude when I was younger, but sold myself out to fit into society, and, ever since, I've been a gross imitation of who I used to be.
I'm tired of selling myself out. No matter what, we should never trade who we are, for anything. I want to live by the values I believe in, rather than just yapping about them.
So, I'll be off till at least the New Year, 1/1/26, and possibly until Spring, in late March/early April. We'll see how things go. When I return, I might stay away from Spoilers, too, because I just enjoy reading One Piece more without them.
Worst case scenario I get abducted by Aliens, and come back for Wano Act 4.
I want to be more like Kuma, and help life around me. Might go and meet some actual Monks, who knows.
Thanks everyone, ya'll stay frosty and crazy out there.


