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Oh damn! I don´t know if I should bring this up again but after I was reflecting on the DAL round and looking through some posts it turned out that I´ve made a big mistake, missing a very important part of one of Kagurashii´s posts. I can´t quote it properly because I was threadbanned, so I have to copy it here like this:
"I’d like to extend the olive brunch here being the mature person that I am and honestly this arguing is very distracting. I can’t concentrate properly because every time I see your posts, it makes me fume. I’d like to propose for a temporary truce. It’s not like I scum read you entirely because tbh, I liked some of your posts. You seriously need to improve your reads tho. But if you continue to act like this then it’s really annoying so I’d request you to think things through and see things in a better light. Try to calm down and play the game properly. I also apologise if any of my comments hurt you because it seems it has affected you enough to take things outside the game thread. You are quite new so you might not be aware of the rules. Don’t get modkilled for doing anything stupid.
So what do you say?"
Back then I stopped reading this post after around the first two or three lines because the tone she began with didn´t sound good and I was so not buying her truce offer at that moment. So I didn´t get to the second half of it and until today I never realized that she actually had apologized to me. This of course could have changed things drastically, I might even have followed her advice in the end and wouldn´t have gotten myself modkilled...
While I stay at my conclusion to not participate in more rounds on Worstgen as I think it seems to bring out the ugliest sides of people - including myself I admit - I have a feeling that I should not "leave" without a few more things said.
@Kagurashii We still might never become friends but as you apologized to me I want apologize to you too. I´m sorry for saying "screw you", I´m usually not insulting people in English and all, I may have crucially underestimated this phrase. Knowing the DAL lore, what happened between us the day before and Cal hinting about his role made me write that post next day and you may have been unaware but with your comments downplaying my intelligence you attacked me at my most vulnerable points. As I didn´t read your post above before, at the end of the game, seeing your role, I automatically (most likely falsely I realize now) assumed that at least 50 % of it had to be part of your strategy which made me even more upset and lead to what happened afterwards and our mutual hate for each other. I apologize for this too.
@Blue @Ratchet and as kind of explanation about that modkill thing for all the other players of this round: I think I was the wrong player for this role. I could have survived for long if I´ve played right, okay, but the role itself was passive and defensive while my playstyle is more active and offensive. I fled to the Virtual World only a few hours after the beginning of a 48 hour day phase, unaware of that fact I activated my tournament (the one with guessing the numbers), normally I could change back to reality (the thread) anytime I wanted but it was different with the tournament, as the winner was announced at the end of the dayphase and after I gave the winner a refill or a double action for his ability we would have gained a common chat at night phase. This meant that I would have been stuck in the Virtual World for around 40 hours that dayphase unablte to post in the thread plus the whole night phase without using my other abilities. I could not send out my own invitations either (unlike Kurumi or White Queen), so in the worst case I could have waited for so long only to refill a maf or hostile indie and having a chat with them afterwards. Already being in a bad mood this turned out to be the point where it all got too much for me, I was doomed into inactivity and probably ending up making things only worse for town. In theory I could have met Dragomir anytime in the Virtual World as his character had a similar ability to go there and he probably could have talked back some motivation into me in that common chat we would have gained, possibly working together, making plans and all, but he seemed to not have used this ability, so I never met him there. I did not hate everything about this round though, I liked the setting, the ideas with the dates (although I never got one) and tournaments and all.
@Ariess As for your round, thinking back about it, while it was crazy and veeery different from all the mafia games I used to participate in before it was not the round itself nor the role (my first reaction about getting Winry was me being excited and I loved this role), it was more me getting blamed by other players for seemingly harming town with my killshots. I was afraid myself that I really screwed up there big time by shooting Cal or making Nibel giving away his frustration and revealing himself as Alphonse after I seemingly only shot Yoki, unaware of Nibel converting Grammaton to town only minutes before or that it had been a fake flip and in reality it later turned out that I killed Scar for real. Also, I completely didn´t expect that it was possible for 10 people to die on one single day phase, more than once townie killing townie by "friendly fire". Had this happened earlier I would have been able to see that I was not the one messing everything up solo-wise and this would have brought my spirit back to the game. So, sorry for the unnecessary unsub in the end, things had taken an unlucky development, after only a light game round before I was not prepared for this.
One of the problems is that I always invest an intense time into mafia to immerse myself into the rounds and I was staying up much longer than I should have, all the rounds started out with fun and excitement but unfortunately reached points were they turned frustrating to me and I had to ask myself if that was personally worth it to me. Omg this post became much longer than I intended oO
"I’d like to extend the olive brunch here being the mature person that I am and honestly this arguing is very distracting. I can’t concentrate properly because every time I see your posts, it makes me fume. I’d like to propose for a temporary truce. It’s not like I scum read you entirely because tbh, I liked some of your posts. You seriously need to improve your reads tho. But if you continue to act like this then it’s really annoying so I’d request you to think things through and see things in a better light. Try to calm down and play the game properly. I also apologise if any of my comments hurt you because it seems it has affected you enough to take things outside the game thread. You are quite new so you might not be aware of the rules. Don’t get modkilled for doing anything stupid.
So what do you say?"
Back then I stopped reading this post after around the first two or three lines because the tone she began with didn´t sound good and I was so not buying her truce offer at that moment. So I didn´t get to the second half of it and until today I never realized that she actually had apologized to me. This of course could have changed things drastically, I might even have followed her advice in the end and wouldn´t have gotten myself modkilled...
While I stay at my conclusion to not participate in more rounds on Worstgen as I think it seems to bring out the ugliest sides of people - including myself I admit - I have a feeling that I should not "leave" without a few more things said.
@Kagurashii We still might never become friends but as you apologized to me I want apologize to you too. I´m sorry for saying "screw you", I´m usually not insulting people in English and all, I may have crucially underestimated this phrase. Knowing the DAL lore, what happened between us the day before and Cal hinting about his role made me write that post next day and you may have been unaware but with your comments downplaying my intelligence you attacked me at my most vulnerable points. As I didn´t read your post above before, at the end of the game, seeing your role, I automatically (most likely falsely I realize now) assumed that at least 50 % of it had to be part of your strategy which made me even more upset and lead to what happened afterwards and our mutual hate for each other. I apologize for this too.
@Blue @Ratchet and as kind of explanation about that modkill thing for all the other players of this round: I think I was the wrong player for this role. I could have survived for long if I´ve played right, okay, but the role itself was passive and defensive while my playstyle is more active and offensive. I fled to the Virtual World only a few hours after the beginning of a 48 hour day phase, unaware of that fact I activated my tournament (the one with guessing the numbers), normally I could change back to reality (the thread) anytime I wanted but it was different with the tournament, as the winner was announced at the end of the dayphase and after I gave the winner a refill or a double action for his ability we would have gained a common chat at night phase. This meant that I would have been stuck in the Virtual World for around 40 hours that dayphase unablte to post in the thread plus the whole night phase without using my other abilities. I could not send out my own invitations either (unlike Kurumi or White Queen), so in the worst case I could have waited for so long only to refill a maf or hostile indie and having a chat with them afterwards. Already being in a bad mood this turned out to be the point where it all got too much for me, I was doomed into inactivity and probably ending up making things only worse for town. In theory I could have met Dragomir anytime in the Virtual World as his character had a similar ability to go there and he probably could have talked back some motivation into me in that common chat we would have gained, possibly working together, making plans and all, but he seemed to not have used this ability, so I never met him there. I did not hate everything about this round though, I liked the setting, the ideas with the dates (although I never got one) and tournaments and all.
@Ariess As for your round, thinking back about it, while it was crazy and veeery different from all the mafia games I used to participate in before it was not the round itself nor the role (my first reaction about getting Winry was me being excited and I loved this role), it was more me getting blamed by other players for seemingly harming town with my killshots. I was afraid myself that I really screwed up there big time by shooting Cal or making Nibel giving away his frustration and revealing himself as Alphonse after I seemingly only shot Yoki, unaware of Nibel converting Grammaton to town only minutes before or that it had been a fake flip and in reality it later turned out that I killed Scar for real. Also, I completely didn´t expect that it was possible for 10 people to die on one single day phase, more than once townie killing townie by "friendly fire". Had this happened earlier I would have been able to see that I was not the one messing everything up solo-wise and this would have brought my spirit back to the game. So, sorry for the unnecessary unsub in the end, things had taken an unlucky development, after only a light game round before I was not prepared for this.
One of the problems is that I always invest an intense time into mafia to immerse myself into the rounds and I was staying up much longer than I should have, all the rounds started out with fun and excitement but unfortunately reached points were they turned frustrating to me and I had to ask myself if that was personally worth it to me. Omg this post became much longer than I intended oO
