@Cross_Marian thanks for your concern over my well being or whatever the right word is lol. Its appreciated man.
@K!NG HARA$H!MA I believe you were asking about where I was too? Am I right?
I'm back now anyways partially. I forced myself on a break as I'm ashamed about how I acted offsite/elsewhere on the discord server to be specific and from now on, I won't be rejoining the server at least for the time being even if they accept me back, as I don't think I deserve it personally.
I was hurt by some others actions/words but I retaliated/responded far worser and im not proud of that even in the slightest.
From now on, for the "better" I'll be mostly keeping to myself and keeping interactions on here and especially off here as minimal as possible as I don't want to risk snapping at anyone else like that again.
You could say I self banned er myself purposely from here until I calmed down and had time to process how I acted.
I'm a very mentally ill person and have been since childhood at least but that didn't, doesn't and will never justify how I acted on the server a few weeks ago now.
I'll apologise indirectly to the people involved and who witnessed that on the server and I'll be keeping my distance from now on, I think it's for the best.