Lack of human physical affection in real life leads me to live through simping/shipping fictional characters.
I have a hard time trusting people, including myself, IRL, so... instead, horny anime stuff.
If people mock me for it, I can't blame them, but, I really love love, as dumb as that sounds, and I like shipping/simping a lot as a result.
I make intolerable squealing noises while watching lesbian anime, it's real bad.