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Ratchet

The End and the Beginning
To be fair to Flower having a bad game is all it is. There is frustration there obviously but I think she puts too much pressure onto herself over something like this which is, let's be honest, inconsequential in the grand scheme of things.

I was disappointed she didn't join to dead chat because it shows to me that she's taking it far too personally and in a damaging way amd I wish she would learn not to do that. I think the claiming vig goes hand in hand with her needing to clear herself to relieve some of that pressure she puts on herself but it's just not how the game should work tactically and she's too good of a player overall to not be able to make her points and let them stand as testament to her alignment.

I think the mental process she has is "people suspect me, and if I get lynched from that it means I was shit" and puts too much I guess "ego" within being perceived as shit when 9 times out of 10 the fault lies with the players misreading her when they're wrong. I think she needs to find a way to seperate this "ego" from how her slot is perceived within these games, Crowned Witch to a lesser extent too. Both of these are capable players to me who could be even better if they just let go of what is frankly, silly hysteria.

Prof I would say also falls into this somewhat as well. His reaction tends to be more inward and less explosive but it's still there, and it would be nice to see him turn a corner with this too. What I said to him in the last day was valid - you can't be referencing having some issues when yiu get questioned because that immediately changes the context and prevents your interlocutor from being able to engage with it as it should be, and becomes an entirely more emotional interaction than what anyone should be expected to receive in hobby.

Obviously Prof, I offer my condolences and your grieving process is far bigger than an experience someone has in a game. I wish you well and I hope your family are holding up okay too. It probably isn't good timing on my part to bring this up, but I do so anyway because I trust that you'll take it the way it's intended. I think the reason you step back from Mafia is because of these elements and I think there is enough within the game itself that is tailor made for someone like you with your interests and personality, but because it carries this excess baggage with it for you, it pushes you away. And this baggage is something that doesn't need to be there at all, but it is and I hope you can unload it eventually because I know there is a player in there that loves the game and is, might I add, pretty darn good at it.

That's really all I have to add to this and if it does come across as failing to read the room, for all three of those listed then take this as an apology and feel free to disregard it.
 
To be fair to Flower having a bad game is all it is. There is frustration there obviously but I think she puts too much pressure onto herself over something like this which is, let's be honest, inconsequential in the grand scheme of things.

I was disappointed she didn't join to dead chat because it shows to me that she's taking it far too personally and in a damaging way amd I wish she would learn not to do that. I think the claiming vig goes hand in hand with her needing to clear herself to relieve some of that pressure she puts on herself but it's just not how the game should work tactically and she's too good of a player overall to not be able to make her points and let them stand as testament to her alignment.

I think the mental process she has is "people suspect me, and if I get lynched from that it means I was shit" and puts too much I guess "ego" within being perceived as shit when 9 times out of 10 the fault lies with the players misreading her when they're wrong. I think she needs to find a way to seperate this "ego" from how her slot is perceived within these games, Crowned Witch to a lesser extent too. Both of these are capable players to me who could be even better if they just let go of what is frankly, silly hysteria.

Prof I would say also falls into this somewhat as well. His reaction tends to be more inward and less explosive but it's still there, and it would be nice to see him turn a corner with this too. What I said to him in the last day was valid - you can't be referencing having some issues when yiu get questioned because that immediately changes the context and prevents your interlocutor from being able to engage with it as it should be, and becomes an entirely more emotional interaction than what anyone should be expected to receive in hobby.

Obviously Prof, I offer my condolences and your grieving process is far bigger than an experience someone has in a game. I wish you well and I hope your family are holding up okay too. It probably isn't good timing on my part to bring this up, but I do so anyway because I trust that you'll take it the way it's intended. I think the reason you step back from Mafia is because of these elements and I think there is enough within the game itself that is tailor made for someone like you with your interests and personality, but because it carries this excess baggage with it for you, it pushes you away. And this baggage is something that doesn't need to be there at all, but it is and I hope you can unload it eventually because I know there is a player in there that loves the game and is, might I add, pretty darn good at it.

That's really all I have to add to this and if it does come across as failing to read the room, for all three of those listed then take this as an apology and feel free to disregard it.
I apologize for mentioning it at all. I was trying to just apologize for snapping at you specifically and explain that “it’s not you it’s me” with it by explaining it was my general on edgeness more than your posting that was making me irritated. I beat myself up a bit after but tried not to let that leak further into the thread and played to the “play stupid games win stupid prizes” thing bc I was trying to bring maybe a slight degree of antagonism to fix it maybe bc I was trying to patch holes in a boat with whatever I could lol.

Basically digging a hole trying to fix things and make it worst. Unfortunately once you step in something there’s nothing you can do about it.

Which I’m terrible at bc when I feel like I’ve done something wrong I wind up either A.) needing to fix it or B.) if I’ve ruined something in a way I can’t fix it I feel the need to punish myself for it lol.

Obv not heathy lol. I tried to do what I could. Outside of the thread I basically wanted to punch myself in the face repeatedly for fumbling.
 
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I regret signing up from a pure time thing lol. I just can’t afford to be investing even as much time as I did this game in these.

I probably just am not really going to play for a long time until life stabilizes some. I wind up doing in game and irl very poorly and failing at both right now lol.

But I did enjoy seeing everyone again and playing with everyone as far as the people lol. But even the shit posting is just too much lol.
 
I regret signing up from a pure time thing lol. I just can’t afford to be investing even as much time as I did this game in these.

I probably just am not really going to play for a long time until life stabilizes some. I wind up doing in game and irl very poorly and failing at both right now lol.

But I did enjoy seeing everyone again and playing with everyone as far as the people lol. But even the shit posting is just too much lol.
Cheers bro. It was a privilege to have you on board.
 

Ratchet

The End and the Beginning
I apologize for mentioning it at all. I was trying to just apologize for snapping at you specifically and explain that “it’s not you it’s me” with it by explaining it was my general on edgeness more than your posting that was making me irritated. I beat myself up a bit after but tried not to let that leak further into the thread and played to the “play stupid games win stupid prizes” thing bc I was trying to bring maybe a slight degree of antagonism to fix it maybe bc I was trying to patch holes in a boat with whatever I could lol.

Basically digging a hole trying to fix things and make it better. Unfortunately once you step in something there’s nothing you can do about it.

Which I’m terrible at bc when I feel like I’ve done something wrong I wind up either A.) needing to fix it or B.) if I’ve ruined something in a way I can’t fix it I feel the need to punish myself for it lol.

Obv not heathy lol. I tried to do what I could. Outside of the thread I basically wanted to punch myself in the face repeatedly for fumbling.
I don't really need the apology because it's not like I was wronged or anything. I will accept it because I know you're stubborn about this sort of thing, but I wasn't irritated by it or anything (unlike how I was with Ekko's self voting etc).

For my part, I think in this case it was inevitable. No matter what you do or how hard you try, when you have a tragedy it's going to bleed in to other places. You have to accept that and forgive yourself for it first, and second try and manage it so it doesn't end up making you feel even worse over it.

I think on a more general level, conflict in Mafia can end up taking you specifically to darker places than what it should, by virtue of there being a lack of separation in some ways between "conflict in game" and "conflict between people". So what I'm really trying to say is that you can disregard this when it comes to this specific scenario, but otherwise, there is a place for you in mafia and for mafia within you, but only if you can avoid getting into that space. And I don't think "I'll just shitpost and meme" is the solution either because at some point, that will run into conflict with playing the game which just makes it worse anyway. I don't know the specific steps for you to get there but I do believe it's similar to what Flower and Crowned Witch need - to remove the "personal stakes" from the "game stakes" in all its forms. That doesn't mean you can't put your person into you the player, it just means that you can engage with it without worrying about how people will take it or treat you or see you etc on a personal level, based on actions taken within and for the game.

In my head that makes sense. I don't know if typing it all out, it makes any sense at all for you as a reader, but I do believe you can get to a point where you can make that separation and engage with the game in I guess a way that is healthier for you mentally. You'll always be welcome, anyway.
 
I don't really need the apology because it's not like I was wronged or anything. I will accept it because I know you're stubborn about this sort of thing, but I wasn't irritated by it or anything (unlike how I was with Ekko's self voting etc).

For my part, I think in this case it was inevitable. No matter what you do or how hard you try, when you have a tragedy it's going to bleed in to other places. You have to accept that and forgive yourself for it first, and second try and manage it so it doesn't end up making you feel even worse over it.

I think on a more general level, conflict in Mafia can end up taking you specifically to darker places than what it should, by virtue of there being a lack of separation in some ways between "conflict in game" and "conflict between people". So what I'm really trying to say is that you can disregard this when it comes to this specific scenario, but otherwise, there is a place for you in mafia and for mafia within you, but only if you can avoid getting into that space. And I don't think "I'll just shitpost and meme" is the solution either because at some point, that will run into conflict with playing the game which just makes it worse anyway. I don't know the specific steps for you to get there but I do believe it's similar to what Flower and Crowned Witch need - to remove the "personal stakes" from the "game stakes" in all its forms. That doesn't mean you can't put your person into you the player, it just means that you can engage with it without worrying about how people will take it or treat you or see you etc on a personal level, based on actions taken within and for the game.

In my head that makes sense. I don't know if typing it all out, it makes any sense at all for you as a reader, but I do believe you can get to a point where you can make that separation and engage with the game in I guess a way that is healthier for you mentally. You'll always be welcome, anyway.
It makes sense lol. I’m just bad at it lol.

I’m tragically an emotional storm and also hyper concerned with how other people view me. Like, I still am concerned with prior posts people like Dest (who likes me in general lol), Magic, etc have made about me as a player. It’s ridiculous but I’m cooked like that lol.

It works on an emotional/personal level if I know the other person is planning to not hold me to things in game out of game. But beyond that there’s a whole difference side where on a reputation level, even certain criticisms of my play style haunt me lol. So I’m constantly playing in a way that there’s pressure on my legacy as a player. Not that I truly care about that bc I don’t so it’s weird.

But Idk I feel like a draft bust sometimes that people had a lot of hope in for my potential but I’m only Baker Mayfield lmao. It’s not that I care in ego, but I care on “I have let expectations down and proven people wrong”

Like hell Ultra said I had “tier 1 potential” once in discord if I could harden up a bit in a conversation I wasn’t even a part of and to this day every now and then I’m like fuck I have let ultra down by being a draft bust lol.

It’s completely silly and nonsense but my brain be like that for absolutely zero reason lol.
 

Ratchet

The End and the Beginning
It makes sense lol. I’m just bad at it lol.

I’m tragically an emotional storm and also hyper concerned with how other people view me. Like, I still am concerned with prior posts people like Dest (who likes me in general lol), Magic, etc have made about me as a player. It’s ridiculous but I’m cooked like that lol.

It works on an emotional/personal level if I know the other person is planning to not hold me to things in game out of game. But beyond that there’s a whole difference side where on a reputation level, even certain criticisms of my play style haunt me lol. So I’m constantly playing in a way that there’s pressure on my legacy as a player. Not that I truly care about that bc I don’t so it’s weird.

But Idk I feel like a draft bust sometimes that people had a lot of hope in for my potential but I’m only Baker Mayfield lmao. It’s not that I care in ego, but I care on “I have let expectations down and proven people wrong”

Like hell Ultra said I had “tier 1 potential” once in discord if I could harden up a bit in a conversation I wasn’t even a part of and to this day every now and then I’m like fuck I have let ultra down by being a draft bust lol.

It’s completely silly and nonsense but my brain be like that for absolutely zero reason lol.
Yeah, I do understand what you mean. I used ego earlier not in the sense of pride, but in the "this is how I see myself, and this is how others see me" sort of way. The Jungian way, if you will. I think that you're self aware of this and it being irrational is a good thing. I wish I had the words or knowledge or intelligence to sweep it away for you, but I have none of the above. So I can only way what I believe - that I do believe you have it in you. But also, that doesn't come from expectation or pressure, but of a supporter instead. The way I see it, regardless of whether you do or not, as long as you're happy and have a good time, I think that's a good thing. I can have no complaints with that.
 
Yeah, I do understand what you mean. I used ego earlier not in the sense of pride, but in the "this is how I see myself, and this is how others see me" sort of way. The Jungian way, if you will. I think that you're self aware of this and it being irrational is a good thing. I wish I had the words or knowledge or intelligence to sweep it away for you, but I have none of the above. So I can only way what I believe - that I do believe you have it in you. But also, that doesn't come from expectation or pressure, but of a supporter instead. The way I see it, regardless of whether you do or not, as long as you're happy and have a good time, I think that's a good thing. I can have no complaints with that.
I am cursed with self awareness & the crippling paralysis to truly solve it lol. At least right now I’m just not sure what to do about it and I’ve been hyper aware of it for a long time lol.
 

EkkoLoJinx

Blade of Miquella
Why aren't we going one of these

Ekko
Reloaded
Prof
Watson
gonna elaborate on any of those?
I already have. You aren't spreading scum dog
Watson not playing clueless is usually her scum game

Prof not doing much of anything

It's scumloaded meta...not playing loose or posting many gifs that I've seen
can you evidence that watson plays clueless as town and not clueless as scum?

same for reloady, can you evidence that lack of gifs is scum indicative of him? i've seen him use gifs alot as wolf
Can you evidence a turd from you ass and present it to everyone in 4 min ...go
i want to also talk about this and for the record im glad you are currently banned from playing in OLF because how in gods name do you work with a player like this. He presents 4 wrong reads as his scum reads, I ask him to evidence why he reads them this way, he responds with the above, locks his vote on me, and refuses to talk further.

you wonder why town loses alot of games. it's because we don't purge these players from the site. we allow this shit to foster
 
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