Sometimes I have strange beliefs that my friends don't accept, for example, I think men fall in love once
I've been struggling with relationships as I can't open myself up and actually try love and trust others, I'm far too cynical/paranoid, have too many trust issues as the one person I finally truly trusted and loved, opened myself to, made myself vulnerable and so on, ghosted me one day and acted like I never existed, did everything in their power to avoid me and even told their friend who I met her through, not to say anything so I had no idea if she was even still alive and safe, as she just "disappeared" and I couldn't get any contact with her, I never saw her again after that.
I found her on Facebook years later and she was like a completely different person, a shell, a shadow of herself, like she was possessed. On that day, my heart got broken again and even harder/worse this time. Since then, I've never been able to love anyone ever again, not even my own family because of the pain, the hurt to this very day, even just seeing her name is extremely painful to me still MANY years later now.
I even googled her yesterday and found out she might be a millionaire now and married, so FML LMAO. I fucking hate this world/life.
The same could apply to women too ofc, once they get their hearts broken too, maybe they can't love again either in the same way, they say the first loves are always the most painful for a reason. I've met a lot of wonderful girls in my time and I couldnt love them, I couldnt return their feelings because of my own hangups, my own issues and I regret it to this day, I missed out a lot due to it.
I found her on Facebook years later and she was like a completely different person, a shell, a shadow of herself, like she was possessed. On that day, my heart got broken again and even harder/worse this time. Since then, I've never been able to love anyone ever again, not even my own family because of the pain, the hurt to this very day, even just seeing her name is extremely painful to me still MANY years later now.
I even googled her yesterday and found out she might be a millionaire now and married, so FML LMAO. I fucking hate this world/life.
The same could apply to women too ofc, once they get their hearts broken too, maybe they can't love again either in the same way, they say the first loves are always the most painful for a reason. I've met a lot of wonderful girls in my time and I couldnt love them, I couldnt return their feelings because of my own hangups, my own issues and I regret it to this day, I missed out a lot due to it.
Sorry just had to get that off my chest, I've been very upset as you can see.
Still remembering that funny ass slander of Jinbei coming back crying holding dead Zoro. 
