Controversial My last semester of college

BoaHancocksHusband

BoaHancocksHusband

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#1
#1
I don't really care anymore about "respect"
I'll just out with it

I know you're used to my nonchalant jokes and is but idc anymore I can't take it

Trigger Warning ⚠️
This is a emotional asf post 📫

So...
I'm a Pakistani-American who moved from the Bronx to Long Island
Circa 2019-2022 went fine for me
My first 3 semesters here in my new college I transferred to went good. The pandemic came and saved me for my 2nd and 3rd semester.

The problem arose in my 4th last semester 🙃

There are two big buildings that connect and are called Student Life where all the cool ppl hang basically.

This is where my troubles started. See I've always had trouble talking w girls tbh I've just given up at the moment and find solace in a future arranged marriage. I already know I'm conventionally mid at best and horrendous looking from a outside my cultural sphere perspective.

I was basically ignored by everyone cuz idfk I'm a ugly awkward shithead

The insult to injury or salt in my wounds was the fact that there were so many Desi Indian paki ppl but none of my so called brethren even stood up for me. I know I know. I need to take responsibility for my actions
I could not have a single conversation
This kid let's call him Mini, was the focus of all my hatred that last semester.
They all looked at me weird idfc anymore. Even my so called paki bros ostracized me.

I didn't even associate w anyone a good week
Just scroll on my phone instead of going home

I'm a deeply hateful individual and am not healthy tbh

I stood my ground against Mini I say Mini Morroccan sux n other reycis shit idgaf I even took pleasure at the earthquake if it harmed Mini.

Mini dares me to talk to random girls
I do so and get ridiculed by each one except one who gave me her number. Mini tells me to delete her number as I am a weirdo and tells her as such

I do so.

Eventually he takes/receives my phone from me one day n sees my stash of mlp hentai. Pretty low moment for me. Ramadan came and went, I vowed to myself I'd forgive my "Muslim brother". Nothing changes all his friends ignore me.
By then I'd ruined any chance of someone liking me and forming a connection. Even ppl who were freshman took Minis side and sneered at me.

I wanted to murk Mini and everyone who laughed at me. I graduated college saw a therapist for 4 months and a year later after that
Nothing has changed.

They all aka circa 15-20 ppl in a room hated my guts cuz the popular loudmouth shitstain who also liked One Piece hated me. A Pakistani-American girl I spoke to there after giving her gum told me to get a job and not be a child molester after I told her I wanted to be a teacher. We could've been friends maybe, if my heart still existed lol but she was a gashti giving me advice on getting married after herself hypocritically sleeping around 😅 😴 🤣

Tldr: im a evil bastard and the world shall know pain
 
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NikaInParis

NikaInParis

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Remove yourself from that area and start afresh somewhere else, bro. Holding onto hate is not good, neither mentally nor physically. Focus on becoming a better version of yourself and set attainable goals and in no time you'll look at the world a different way and the world will look at you the same way
 
Logiko

Logiko

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#5
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BoaHancocksHusband said:
I don't really care anymore about "respect"
I'll just out with it

I know you're used to my nonchalant jokes and is but idc anymore I can't take it

Trigger Warning ⚠️
This is a emotional asf post 📫

So...
I'm a Pakistani-American who moved from the Bronx to Long Island
Circa 2019-2022 went fine for me
My first 3 semesters here in my new college I transferred to went good. The pandemic came and saved me for my 2nd and 3rd semester.

The problem arose in my 4th last semester 🙃

There are two big buildings that connect and are called Student Life where all the cool ppl hang basically.

This is where my troubles started. See I've always had trouble talking w girls tbh I've just given up at the moment and find solace in a future arranged marriage. I already know I'm conventionally mid at best and horrendous looking from a outside my cultural sphere perspective.

I was basically ignored by everyone cuz idfk I'm a ugly awkward shithead

The insult to injury or salt in my wounds was the fact that there were so many Desi Indian paki ppl but none of my so called brethren even stood up for me. I know I know. I need to take responsibility for my actions
I could not have a single conversation
This kid let's call him Mini, was the focus of all my hatred that last semester.
They all looked at me weird idfc anymore. Even my so called paki bros ostracized me.

I didn't even associate w anyone a good week
Just scroll on my phone instead of going home

I'm a deeply hateful individual and am not healthy tbh

I stood my ground against Mini I say Mini Morroccan sux n other reycis shit idgaf I even took pleasure at the earthquake if it harmed Mini.

Mini dares me to talk to random girls
I do so and get ridiculed by each one except one who gave me her number. Mini tells me to delete her number as I am a weirdo and tells her as such

I do so.

Eventually he takes/receives my phone from me one day n sees my stash of mlp hentai. Pretty low moment for me. Ramadan came and went, I vowed to myself I'd forgive my "Muslim brother". Nothing changes all his friends ignore me.
By then I'd ruined any chance of someone liking me and forming a connection. Even ppl who were freshman took Minis side and sneered at me.

I wanted to murk Mini and everyone who laughed at me. I graduated college saw a therapist for 4 months and a year later after that
Nothing has changed.

They all aka circa 15-20 ppl in a room hated my guts cuz the popular loudmouth shitstain who also liked One Piece hated me. A Pakistani-American girl I spoke to there after giving her gum told me to get a job and not be a child molester after I told her I wanted to be a teacher. We could've been friends maybe, if my heart still existed lol but she was a gashti giving me advice on getting married after herself hypocritically sleeping around 😅 😴 🤣

Tldr: im a evil bastard and the world shall know pain
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Since you are taggin me, a few advices:

1. Learn to love and respect yourself. You can't expect people to love you if you don't love yourself in the first place

2. Treat other people as you wish them to treat you. I see a lot of hatred here. You won't be able to feel good by keeping that attitude. Strive to be someone who can make people happy not the opposite.

3. Take a break from people, recenter yourself, and learn more about yourself. You are in a toxic circle of negative emotions and you have a problem of self confidence. Know what you love, what you want, what you feel and what you don't. Find back the confidence in your desires and needs. You will feel better.

4. Don't rush. You are young, don't try to force relationships, they will come as they will. If a group doesn't appreciate you, then try to find another group. But again.. with respect in mind.

5. Open your mind to new things. I feel a lot of closemindness here. Don't feel restricted by cultural or social barriers. If you want to talk with someone, go for it, just try to empathize with the person.
 
BoaHancocksHusband

BoaHancocksHusband

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Daniel said:
If you were to take one single thing away from this ordeal, you should learn to not let people have access to your smartphone at all times, ever.
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Nah I was just being a passive lil bitch
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NikaInParis said:
Remove yourself from that area and start afresh somewhere else, bro. Holding onto hate is not good, neither mentally nor physically. Focus on becoming a better version of yourself and set attainable goals and in no time you'll look at the world a different way and the world will look at you the same way
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Bro the way I was humiliated daily its no question I will hate that bastard 4 life
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NikaInParis said:
Remove yourself from that area and start afresh somewhere else, bro. Holding onto hate is not good, neither mentally nor physically. Focus on becoming a better version of yourself and set attainable goals and in no time you'll look at the world a different way and the world will look at you the same way
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Thankfully I'm done with college but now I have to deal with my parents due to only working 1 day a week so far and basically near unemployment. I'm in NC currently for a hotel job my dad friend is hooking me up for

I don't like being told what to do all the time, but I just do it anyway
 
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Monkey D Theories

Monkey D Theories

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BoaHancocksHusband said:
Nah I was just being a passive lil bitch
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Bro the way I was humiliated daily its no question I will hate that bastard 4 life
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Thankfully I'm done with college but now I have to deal with my parents due to only working 1 day a week so far and basically near unemployment. I'm in NC currently for a hotel job my dad friend is hooking me up for

I don't like being told what to do all the time, but I just do it anyway
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just keep applying!

it must have taken me hundreds of applications that went nowhere before I got hired. It will be tough but you just got to keep going!
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As for your story, I wouldn’t associate with people who are toxic and mistreat you, like the individual you hate.

it’s best to cut them out of your life or if you can’t, give them the absolute bare minimum of your time and energy
 
BoaHancocksHusband

BoaHancocksHusband

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Logiko said:
Since you are taggin me, a few advices:

1. Learn to love and respect yourself. You can't expect people to love you if you don't love yourself in the first place

2. Treat other people as you wish them to treat you. I see a lot of hatred here. You won't be able to feel good by keeping that attitude. Strive to be someone who can make people happy not the opposite.

3. Take a break from people, recenter yourself, and learn more about yourself. You are in a toxic circle of negative emotions and you have a problem of self confidence. Know what you love, what you want, what you feel and what you don't. Find back the confidence in your desires and needs. You will feel better.

4. Don't rush. You are young, don't try to force relationships, they will come as they will. If a group doesn't appreciate you, then try to find another group. But again.. with respect in mind.

5. Open your mind to new things. I feel a lot of closemindness here. Don't feel restricted by cultural or social barriers. If you want to talk with someone, go for it, just try to empathize with the person.
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thanks logiiko
 
H

Haoshoku

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You are who you hang out with. Hang out with people who are better and you’ll find yourself doing better as well. As a Muslim especially you already have the direction to take your first steps towards that.
 
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