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I will be going on a long Mafia break from now. I‘m sick of how certain disgusting behavior is tolerated and also I‘m sick of being treated like shit all the damn time. Please don’t tag me for any games. I‘ll return for Favs maybe or Members, but even that is uncertain unless some things have drastically changed until then.
Good Bye.
Good Bye.
Just so I don’t get 1upped by Flower and CW quitting mafia here, I just want to write this random post to maybe clarify some things since I think I’ve come to a realization.
My mental health sucks and there isn’t much I do that improves it or makes me happy. I spend a lot of time in my room alone cuz I can’t find the motivation or a reason to leave, and so a lot of my time is spent online and rotting in bed in a dark room. And so when a mafia game starts and I don’t have irl stuff to do I’ll just camp thread all day since at least it’s people to talk to and something to do. The issue with this is mafia becomes the only thing I do some days and therefore my entire potential source of happiness for the day. So if I lose, losing just becomes another woe in my already existing list of woes. And if I win, idk. I’m usually dead so I don’t feel like I earned it or that I could’ve won better so I end up feeling indifferent. It’s been a mystery for a while why I felt this way until losing 3 games in a row to afk mafia teams made me really consider why losing would make me literally cry and ruin the rest of my day and leave me bitter and angry and toxic. I will admit I outted from all my games in a fit of rage but I’m gonna stand by my decision to end with champs since the FOMO and regret prevent me from 100% quitting. But currently mafia is a net negative for me despite how great the people are and I really am not in a good spot to continue playing. I need to be playing this when I have time to kill and other sources of joy / less sources of pain, not when I’m close to rock bottom and continuing to dig down. I really fear that if I keep going I’m just going to become more and more angry and toxic, to the point where I’ll become unrecognizable from the player ppl have enjoyed playing against.
There are probably a few more games I’ll play due to FOMO or addiction or whatever, but the main decision here is to quit and attempt to work on myself. It has been great to meet and play with u all but like I really just can’t commit
Completely unrelated but I think ppl who get banned on MU flock to OLF and WG to get their fix
But anyway pls reach out if u want to chat since I love talking and I’m very alone
But don’t tempt an addict with a new mafia game pls and ty
Bye for now. Maybe I’ll be better in the future
My mental health sucks and there isn’t much I do that improves it or makes me happy. I spend a lot of time in my room alone cuz I can’t find the motivation or a reason to leave, and so a lot of my time is spent online and rotting in bed in a dark room. And so when a mafia game starts and I don’t have irl stuff to do I’ll just camp thread all day since at least it’s people to talk to and something to do. The issue with this is mafia becomes the only thing I do some days and therefore my entire potential source of happiness for the day. So if I lose, losing just becomes another woe in my already existing list of woes. And if I win, idk. I’m usually dead so I don’t feel like I earned it or that I could’ve won better so I end up feeling indifferent. It’s been a mystery for a while why I felt this way until losing 3 games in a row to afk mafia teams made me really consider why losing would make me literally cry and ruin the rest of my day and leave me bitter and angry and toxic. I will admit I outted from all my games in a fit of rage but I’m gonna stand by my decision to end with champs since the FOMO and regret prevent me from 100% quitting. But currently mafia is a net negative for me despite how great the people are and I really am not in a good spot to continue playing. I need to be playing this when I have time to kill and other sources of joy / less sources of pain, not when I’m close to rock bottom and continuing to dig down. I really fear that if I keep going I’m just going to become more and more angry and toxic, to the point where I’ll become unrecognizable from the player ppl have enjoyed playing against.
There are probably a few more games I’ll play due to FOMO or addiction or whatever, but the main decision here is to quit and attempt to work on myself. It has been great to meet and play with u all but like I really just can’t commit
Completely unrelated but I think ppl who get banned on MU flock to OLF and WG to get their fix
But anyway pls reach out if u want to chat since I love talking and I’m very alone
But don’t tempt an addict with a new mafia game pls and ty
Bye for now. Maybe I’ll be better in the future
I get how you feel. During Covid lockdowns I had a similar experience. The only contact to other people outside of my family was exclusively online and that’s when I played the most and also got addicted. Nowadays it’s still a hobby, but I play mostly when I‘m not home actually since it can get boring at work (esp since I quit recently and just have to sort things out so my successor can take over now). I think the issue is investing too much effort into games. People oftenly just don’t value what you’re doing or even shit on you despite you putting your passion and soul into it and that can lead to frustration and to you feeling hurt. I keep doing it again and again because I just can’t help myself and then get hurt again and again. So I feel I should probably just stop playing eventually because people just always treat me like shit and with utter disrespect and disregard everything I do and don’t even read my posts when I die anyway, so why bother at this point. Or I‘m scum and am left with many inactive team mates who don’t care. Overlord and my recent scum games on MU were actually a blessing because for the first time in a long time I had actual teams to work with.
So yeah, if you intend to quit it‘s probably better for your health. I can absolutely understand you. But I hope we talk from time to time because you’re a fun guy. Don’t let people get you down too much.
So yeah, if you intend to quit it‘s probably better for your health. I can absolutely understand you. But I hope we talk from time to time because you’re a fun guy. Don’t let people get you down too much.
I think the putting in effort and getting dunked on or ignored is maybe part of why I get upset, but even if mafia games here became more active or less toxic it still wouldn’t change that I’m in a bad state of mind. Again big reason for me quitting is mental health not the state of the game. It’s been a constant decline and u can see it as early as my first game here (Nier) and HP and those were pretty active games. But also yeah even when bad stuff in mafia happened I was starting to waaaaay overreact. It’s even starting to leak into my personal life where I’ll get pissed at minor-ish inconveniences
I spent probably the entirety of yesterday fuming over smth that happened and crying, so I get that, too. I put effort into my job and get treated like shit and I invest effort into a game and get treated like shit, so putting my heart, passion and soul into something and getting treated like shit by people who don’t value me is the story of my life at this point. It‘s especially horrible when it’s done by people who know how to hurt me and what‘s my weakspot. But since it‘s not just in Mafia I feel like maybe it’s my mentality that’s at fault? Maybe I should just stop caring about anything? But then I‘d feel empty and dead inside so that doesn’t seem like the solution either. So I don’t know what people like you and me do wrong or how we can get less hurt tbh.