Super Role Madness Pokemon: I choose you!

Yeah but unironically I was thinking about it and if ppl hold themselves to a lower standard there’s less weight from expectations

cuz I set very unrealistic expectations for myself when I play mafia and it really weighs on me

but maybe the bar here is so low it makes ppl unreadable, and maybe my bar is too high that I’m exhausted by the amount of effort needed to clear it, when really mafia should just be a game

I just really wish I wasn’t deluding myself with false assumptions about what ppl expect from me and how they react to my mistakes, cuz I realized a lot of my mafia experience has been me feeling like a liability or that I’m ruining the game with my bad plays, and I end up feeling obligated to play more to make up for my mistakes. Cuz I hate hurting people or making it feel like I’m making the game worse overall for people, so I try my best to play and play well. Unfortunately again I feel very accident-prone and I way exaggerate ppl’s reactions in my mind / assume that ppl are way more pissed off if I make mistakes, so I try super hard not to do that.

it’s something that I discovered is that I’m a bit of a perfectionist, but not in the sense of “I need to be perfect because perfect is awesome”, but literally “I need to be perfect so that I don’t hurt people with my mistakes”

but yeah I think that explains a lot of the reasons I go full tryhard in mafia games at the cost of my own wellbeing and also find it hard to leave, cuz I also have the delusion of “if I leave, the town will fall apart without me and everyone will have a worse time”

sorry for oversharing. The weight i perceive is just too much to hold in sometimes
You wouldn't be making such posts as scum, right?:endthis:
 
The fact that Orca thinks that I could be scum with Jan, bittersweet and Juliet shows that he probably hasn't read any of my posts beyond the couple he interacted with.

It's quite amusing, actually.
It actually got me thinking, because his depth of thought shallowed down I think, looking at that recent readlist justification. I think his earlier posts were more thought out.

Look at these:

Not sure im caught up where this post originates, but the complete opposite is actually the norm. And I run with the wrong reason and dumb tropes of catching scum more than anyone. They hate that it shouldn't be why they're caught so they focus on it more to the point of trying to steer it as not a reason. Whether it is because they hadn't posted, said a specific word, answered a meaningless question wrong, didn't answer a meaningless question, entered the thread slightly different...on and on. It gets under their skin and they focus on it more, more often than not.
Did I?

Roll the tape


Liking something and labeling you a town read are two different aspects. Ginger could have latched onto your thought for something easy, you both could be scum looking for something easy to push, your posts lack the detailed thought succession I remember you having as town. Lots of choppy short replies this go around it feels. Ginger is being held back because of the concept about scum wanting to be accused of wrong reasons because it gives them something to post about. Maybe I'm one of the few who feel very strongly that the thought is wrong, but it is out of place even in the context of the scenario I believe

But yes, those recognitions about my play are points in your favor, doesn't make it a town read though
 
I was second-guessing some of the slight scum leans but I'm not sure if I want to clear some of the town reads some of the others have. I always have a slight suspicion of PB and Orca on here because of their track record in recent games we've played together.

Still not sure if I want to clear Shu/Poyser's role despite the drastic change in thread presence with the new player.
Whay do you mea here about Shu's Poyser's role? I did not read anything by Shu. Poyser did not pinged me really so far but he has a good scum range and I see nothing to clear him so far.
 
Did that Magic game where he had to RPS to kill people as SK was also hosted by Fuji?

I mean I don't think York's power is SK power then, because imagine if she failed RPS on someone, she'd be toast. Because she said she had one shot of this. Tell me if I'm missing something here.

This is to all the people that laid off York as "indie" (I think Cal among them).
 
Did that Magic game where he had to RPS to kill people as SK was also hosted by Fuji?

I mean I don't think York's power is SK power then, because imagine if she failed RPS on someone, she'd be toast. Because she said she had one shot of this. Tell me if I'm missing something here.

This is to all the people that laid off York as "indie" (I think Cal among them).
She claimed it was an amped RPS superkill. If she’s Indie she‘d have a regular kill on top of that.
 
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