Don't worry, I've been doubting me all game. I'm either alive because I'm pushable since nobody has any meta on me, or because I've been heavily scum-siding all game.
I'm now leaning towards the latter, alas. But in my defence, this game has over 10K posts and is orders of magnitude larger than most of what I've played in the past. So I'm actually glad that I managed to get there on Rej.