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i wonder if i'll find a girlfriend one day or if i'll die alone

a lot of ppl who think they'll never find someone just stumble upon someone eventually tho.

i've already discussed this a lot this ggame and previous ggames tho

i think im at a point where i've overshared a lot of my problems but yet i have heard no solutions nor do i think anyone i talk to is a licensed therapist who actually can help

no one should feel obligated to try to solve my problems btw i feel just fine having ppl to trauma dump on
 
Every create your own role game I make a parasite role and latch onto Ratchet like a barnacle and become his Mason
i was neighbors with ratchet once

i was so paranoid since we were neighbors instead of masons that i ended up faking a PR to try to get him to slip up in our hood and he never did cuz he was town

well that and i also always wanted to fake a PR and what a better game to do it than that one
 
i like VT the best actually

i feel like i cause the least harm to town that way and it's always so satisfying when mafia deem u more worthy of a kill than a town PR

but also i like creating strength from weak roles where it's like "oh i have to deal with PRs AND this??"
 
i wonder if i'll find a girlfriend one day or if i'll die alone

a lot of ppl who think they'll never find someone just stumble upon someone eventually tho.

i've already discussed this a lot this ggame and previous ggames tho

i think im at a point where i've overshared a lot of my problems but yet i have heard no solutions nor do i think anyone i talk to is a licensed therapist who actually can help

no one should feel obligated to try to solve my problems btw i feel just fine having ppl to trauma dump on
I’m not licensed but I do have a psychology degree (not in counseling lol, in research although I did take a lot of classes bc I stated wanting to be a therapist).

So if you need a quack therapist who has an adjacent degree who dropped his PhD program to run a farm then I’m your guy.
 
I have faked a pr in the past game even when i was town.
oh i was town that game too
i like VT the best actually

i feel like i cause the least harm to town that way and it's always so satisfying when mafia deem u more worthy of a kill than a town PR

but also i like creating strength from weak roles where it's like "oh i have to deal with PRs AND this??"
but yeah to add onto this it's like when a pawn in chess is like 1 square away from becoming a queen / actually becomes a queen
 
i wonder if i'll find a girlfriend one day or if i'll die alone

a lot of ppl who think they'll never find someone just stumble upon someone eventually tho.

i've already discussed this a lot this ggame and previous ggames tho

i think im at a point where i've overshared a lot of my problems but yet i have heard no solutions nor do i think anyone i talk to is a licensed therapist who actually can help

no one should feel obligated to try to solve my problems btw i feel just fine having ppl to trauma dump on
I had an extremely fraught dating history with a lot of bad decisions made out of loneliness for a long time

But for the past 4 years, I have been in an incredibly wonderful beautiful and perfect relationship with my boyfriend who has also been my best friend for the past 10 years.

Which is not to say "Go fuck your bestie", but more just... love can be hard to find and feel *impossible* to find. But no matter what shitty things might happen, what hurt may come, there will always be hope for better.
 
I had an extremely fraught dating history with a lot of bad decisions made out of loneliness for a long time

But for the past 4 years, I have been in an incredibly wonderful beautiful and perfect relationship with my boyfriend who has also been my best friend for the past 10 years.

Which is not to say "Go fuck your bestie", but more just... love can be hard to find and feel *impossible* to find. But no matter what shitty things might happen, what hurt may come, there will always be hope for better.
All I heard was go fuck your bestie
 
I’m not licensed but I do have a psychology degree (not in counseling lol, in research although I did take a lot of classes bc I stated wanting to be a therapist).

So if you need a quack therapist who has an adjacent degree who dropped his PhD program to run a farm then I’m your guy.
oh u used to be a PhD student? did u get a Masters at least?

also more importantly yes what are some good coping mechanisms for when bad stuff happens n life and how do u resist cravings/urges/relapse for addiction

i think ppl say just anecdotally that u gotta try to maximize the good stuff in your life while also trying to minimize the bad stuff but i feel like im only trying to minimize the bad stuff and it leaves me feeling empty and exhausted instead cuz i just feel like im spending a lot of mental energy trying to resist the temptations of my addictions
 
Last relationship advice I have to give is you gotta find someone who will match your freak. You can't sanitize yourself for the sake of pursuing love. Last night I got extremely high and said and tweeted some rather strange things about the pokemon Gastrodon. And I was like "god I must sound so crazy right now" and he was like "No I totally understand where you're coming from. I see it." And that is what love should look like.
 
I had an extremely fraught dating history with a lot of bad decisions made out of loneliness for a long time

But for the past 4 years, I have been in an incredibly wonderful beautiful and perfect relationship with my boyfriend who has also been my best friend for the past 10 years.

Which is not to say "Go fuck your bestie", but more just... love can be hard to find and feel *impossible* to find. But no matter what shitty things might happen, what hurt may come, there will always be hope for better.
ah im happy for u

but also i hope i can be happy too

rn im so busy with grad school im just glad to have friends

but one day i hope to find someone

i dont even think i have a bestie cuz im very closed-off irl

which is ironic bc im like a social butterfly here

but it's also really really easy to be open and honest when i have anonymity and won't feel the consequences of my actions

like if some ppl irl found out about this stuff they wouldn't hate me but i think they'd think less of me. at least a little
 
I’m not licensed but I do have a psychology degree (not in counseling lol, in research although I did take a lot of classes bc I stated wanting to be a therapist).

So if you need a quack therapist who has an adjacent degree who dropped his PhD program to run a farm then I’m your guy.
Therapy is expensive, I just use cheap liquor and smoke instead
Probably also why im still single lol rip
 
Last relationship advice I have to give is you gotta find someone who will match your freak. You can't sanitize yourself for the sake of pursuing love. Last night I got extremely high and said and tweeted some rather strange things about the pokemon Gastrodon. And I was like "god I must sound so crazy right now" and he was like "No I totally understand where you're coming from. I see it." And that is what love should look like.
yeah ig so but putting any restrictions or filters on what im looking for when i already feel like my chances are slim just make it feel even more doomery LOL

but if i ever become mr. bitches and it gets to a point where women are throwing themselves at me and i can be picky about it then yes that'll be something i'll consider

my standards are kinda so low i just want someone who will love me back.

also in my head the tweets read like "wow gastrodon is so slimy i wish it would crawl up my leg and use its suction cups on me" and your bf just being like "yeah"
 
oh u used to be a PhD student? did u get a Masters at least?

also more importantly yes what are some good coping mechanisms for when bad stuff happens n life and how do u resist cravings/urges/relapse for addiction

i think ppl say just anecdotally that u gotta try to maximize the good stuff in your life while also trying to minimize the bad stuff but i feel like im only trying to minimize the bad stuff and it leaves me feeling empty and exhausted instead cuz i just feel like im spending a lot of mental energy trying to resist the temptations of my addictions
I did get the masters lol. Although to do the really cool stuff I’d have to finish the doctorate (fun fact my username is Dr_Professor bc I of grad school lol).

Those anecdotes are correct in making yourself happier. (Exposing yourself to positive stimulus and reducing negative stimulus contact). But the way you should probably go about is take anything you do and compare how much negative feedback it gives you to positive. Find things that just naturally give you mostly positive and stick with those and avoid activities that cause negative. (The ones you can).

But as far as how to actually deal with cravings and relapse and stuff, your best friend is going to be cognitive therapy (actually what I stated out going for), basically you train yourself to think differently. You’d basically need to talk things out with someone and let them show you alternatives ways to think about these things, mindfulness of your own maladaptive thought patterns, and learn to recognize them and counter them with the alternative truths of the matter. (It’s actually how I deal with myself a lot of the time. I’m bipolar and have bpd and it’s done wonders being able to rationalize myself out of my crazy thoughts patterns even if it isn’t a miracle fix). It’s not a quick fix, you need to constantly train yourself to do so, and also talk things out regularly with someone about it who can be that voice for you early on.
 
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