i feel like this game is just really dragging on and that no one is gonna step up and jumpstart it
the active towns are like a bunch of horses tied to a boulder while the other town horses are asleep
so im a horse who still wants to move the boulder but it is also realizing the possible futility of trying and how much toll it's gonna take to try to be the hero again
not to mention the boulder calls to me. it laughs at me. it taunts me. yells at me to keep going and keep trying.
all this stuff is usually the key ingredients of an epic comeback story where te active ppl band together and carry town
but for some reason that same logic of "i need to keep going and pushing through the anguish to save town" is being weaponized against me to where i feel like a fruit that's been juiced and now i'm trying to squeeze as much of the little juice i have left out
but yeah normally i'd be like "u gotta make a sacrifice and put in the extra effort to jumpstart the game" but i think that attitude is what got me here cuz there's only so long u can go in on overdrive before u burn out. and idk if i even had to try this hard i just did.
anyway i think im confusing me being burned out with me being lazy. cuz the solution to being too lazy to do something is to just force yourself to do it bc u have the energy for it. but i unironically think i just dont have the energy in me to push myself in any capacity and i think the only way to fix it att this point is to take a break and cut ties til i have the enrgy to do anything again. but also idk if even this is plausible or will fix me. idk im exhausted. i've been forcingg myself to go the extra mile to hopefully get out of a rut, but it had the opposite effect and made me even more burned out.
i also feel too controlled by my addiction to mafia that i doubt i could quit and take a break even if i wanted to tho so ig i just watch myself wither away as my energy dwindles
anyway sorry for random wallpost rant jumpscare charlie
the active towns are like a bunch of horses tied to a boulder while the other town horses are asleep
so im a horse who still wants to move the boulder but it is also realizing the possible futility of trying and how much toll it's gonna take to try to be the hero again
not to mention the boulder calls to me. it laughs at me. it taunts me. yells at me to keep going and keep trying.
all this stuff is usually the key ingredients of an epic comeback story where te active ppl band together and carry town
but for some reason that same logic of "i need to keep going and pushing through the anguish to save town" is being weaponized against me to where i feel like a fruit that's been juiced and now i'm trying to squeeze as much of the little juice i have left out
but yeah normally i'd be like "u gotta make a sacrifice and put in the extra effort to jumpstart the game" but i think that attitude is what got me here cuz there's only so long u can go in on overdrive before u burn out. and idk if i even had to try this hard i just did.
anyway i think im confusing me being burned out with me being lazy. cuz the solution to being too lazy to do something is to just force yourself to do it bc u have the energy for it. but i unironically think i just dont have the energy in me to push myself in any capacity and i think the only way to fix it att this point is to take a break and cut ties til i have the enrgy to do anything again. but also idk if even this is plausible or will fix me. idk im exhausted. i've been forcingg myself to go the extra mile to hopefully get out of a rut, but it had the opposite effect and made me even more burned out.
i also feel too controlled by my addiction to mafia that i doubt i could quit and take a break even if i wanted to tho so ig i just watch myself wither away as my energy dwindles
anyway sorry for random wallpost rant jumpscare charlie
