The problem isn't with the Answer you gave yourself, it's already in the Question
I will ask you a question, have you ever met a Short Tall Guy? or Fat Skinny Guy?
And can you guess if my Male Friend gave birth to a Boy or Girl?
You wrote two Contradictive Statements about God & then blamed it on Him & concluded he doesn't Exist
No offence, but your Logic was already Flawed to begin with
We don't talk about such things, mainly what does God do to himself, that's not in our Knowledge & we cannot comprehend Nature of God, why? Because we are neither God, nor there is Anything like Him, nor can we Study his Nature cuz Nothing can be used against him
Actually this whole Topic implies we have Ability to study God's Nature & understand how things Effect him, but if he can be Effected by other things or if he can be Studied by other things, then he isn't Above Everything, that means you're not talking about God, you're talking about something else
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What you should concern yourself with is "Definition of God", not "Nature of God"
And He is indeed All Powerful & All Knowing & Above All
You also said that if God exists, then He would have helped you Find him
But again, you're assuming things, how can We Humans who don't even know what will other Humans decide, be aware of what God does?
Saying that you know what God must do means that you either don't consider him All Powerful & he doesn't have Free Will or that you have Knowledge of being a God which is clearly Wrong
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I will tell you one thing, you don't have to Listen to Religious people, nor do you have to Ask yourself
Because neither Yourself nor other People can make anyone Find or Not Find God
What Atheists should really be asking is not ---> Does God Exist?
Cuz he isn't some kind of Rare Creature waiting for us to Prove his Existence, this isn't a Test about Intellect
Being Above All, means that only Him can decide who finds Him & who doesn't
So even if you bring Smartest Atheist & no matter what they say, how can they prove that it wasn't God who let them reach such Wrong Conclusions about him because He doesn't want them to Find him? (At least not yet)
Correct Question should be ---> What are Requirements for God to Guide me?
God is not a Door that you're Tasked to Study & Unlock with a Key
God is a Door that can only be Opened if you Knock & God decides to let you Enter
As simple as that, so we ask ourselves, what kind of People should We be to be allowed Entry? Cuz this is Ruler of Everything behind the Door, no one can force their way in, and those who aren't allowed to, will only start to think there is Nothing behind it
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The Answer is very simple
There are People who aren't really Smart, there are people who are Blind, Deaf, Hurt ... etc
But there is Something that can be found in every Single Human, and that is "Heart"
Finding God is not Test of Intellect cuz that would mean only Smartest People can Find him
It's not Test of Physical Endurance, not Test of Power, not Test of Vision & getting Lectured ... etc
It's just a Test of Faith, God only requires your Heart, nothing more, nothing less, the Rest comes after that
God sees what's Inside us, something that we Humans are unable to no matter how Long we know a Person
And God only guides those who truly want Him & need his Guidance
But someone who deep inside says "I don't need God", then why should God help him?
Someone who says "I wanna find Proof of God but i won't follow him even if i do", why should God help him?
Someone who says "I don't care about God, i just wanna Find him", why should God help them?
Someone who says "I don't know if God exists, but i will just Live my Life & forget about him", why should they be Guided?
You either Want & Need God, or You believe you're Separated from Him or Worse, Against him
There is no Middle Ground, it's only these Two Sides, either you're With God, or Don't Care/Against Him
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If you want Guidance, don't Ask yourself, don't Ask anybody, whether they are Religious or Atheists
Ask only God, just make sure your Heart is Pure & you have Good Intentions & willing to Follow him no matter what Answer you get
You must never be Biased toward any Belief or Disbelief, it's God first & then comes Religion, not Vice Versa
Just think about this Single Phrase "If God is Above All, then Only Him can Guide me"
Accept this Statement & then you get your Final Answer, either you remain an Atheist or you be Guided