Thank you all.
I still don't feel less depressed though.
Every time I think I'm doing great and then I'm back to being a sad suicidal mess.
I know I'll get over it eventually, but what's the point if I'm just going to be depressed and angry again?
I think it may really be time for me to just end my life. Maybe I'll be reborn, I hope, it'd be a chance to start anew without any of the stress, anxiety or pain of this life remaining.
If not then oh well, worth a shot.
No stop , killing himself is no option.
You will become better ,there are always up‘s and down‘s in life .
that‘s life and that‘s normal, nobody throughout his life always has only good times there are worse times as well.
Think about it there are people who care about you .
your family ,friends ,school companions or people you work with .
Ever thought about how they would feel if you are gone ?
You will push yourself out of this ,and one day you think back at these times ,and you will be glad you made it through.
There is so much more positiv stuff left for you in your life ,that you can‘t experience if you end it .
You can do it !!!!