Ratchet

The End and the Beginning
I just hope champs isn’t a shitshow for me

My game rands in 5 hours and I’m really worried I’ll have another breakdown like the vampire game

Cuz I had a breakdown just from playing and nothing was going on
It sounds like, if I may be blunt, that you're creating a mental prison for yourself with how you're treating it. I would say that if you're dreading the draw already something is wrong, and it's never going to go well. You can either then not play, but that might not work well, or try a gimmick or something to make it fun for yourself - the important part is that you focus on the "fun" part. Whatever you choose, I think afterwards, a break from the Internet at large would do you good - we all need to detox from time to time.
 
I spent probably the entirety of yesterday fuming over smth that happened and crying, so I get that, too. I put effort into my job and get treated like shit and I invest effort into a game and get treated like shit, so putting my heart, passion and soul into something and getting treated like shit by people who don’t value me is the story of my life at this point. It‘s especially horrible when it’s done by people who know how to hurt me and what‘s my weakspot. But since it‘s not just in Mafia I feel like maybe it’s my mentality that’s at fault? Maybe I should just stop caring about anything? But then I‘d feel empty and dead inside so that doesn’t seem like the solution either. So I don’t know what people like you and me do wrong or how we can get less hurt tbh.
Idk

I was hoping at least for mafia that if I can find enough other sources of happiness that I can be in a good enough spot so that even if I win or lose I’ll be okay. Or like that I’ll be happy enough via other things that I won’t have to rely on mafia as a potential source of joy, and so I can finally treat it as just a game instead of like something that determines my mood for the day

irl I was also maybe considering meditation and grounding techniques cuz at a minimum they’re supposed to 0 you out (make you feel nothing at all instead of angry or sad). So like if I can’t be happy I could at least settle for stopping the negativity.

idk I can’t really recommend fixes for irl since I’m no expert but at least for me personally I really want to find things in my life that unconditionally spark joy; like things where as long as I do them I feel happier. Idk what exactly these are: maybe like non-competitive exercise (so not sports at a competitive level) or getting a good nights sleep or something. But at least for me I want to try to make my personal happiness as independent of the events in my life as possible so that even if anything bad happens (ie I get dunked on or ignored) I’m still ok and not devastated. I also assume there’s like better ways for emotion regulation and better ways to cope with negative stuff, but honestly in the lens that I’m in a ton of mental pain all the time, I don’t think I’m overreacting when something bad happens cuz like dealing with a lot of pain long term really wears me down and making that pain worse makes me upset (so crying/being frustrated feels like a normal response to being in a ton of pain). And so again the big focus is on general wellness and doing things that are almost guaranteed to make me feel better, and I’m pretty sure it’s just the stuff that ppl say are “good for you” like eating healthy or sleeping well or drinking water or exercising or whatever

Sorry for the rant
 
It sounds like, if I may be blunt, that you're creating a mental prison for yourself with how you're treating it. I would say that if you're dreading the draw already something is wrong, and it's never going to go well. You can either then not play, but that might not work well, or try a gimmick or something to make it fun for yourself - the important part is that you focus on the "fun" part. Whatever you choose, I think afterwards, a break from the Internet at large would do you good - we all need to detox from time to time.
Trying to focus on having fun helps, yeah.

Unironically tho there are ppl there already having high hopes for me and the fact that there’s expectations at all make me feel obligated to meet them.
I kinda hate that I’m like this. It’s so easy to fall into these painful traps
 

Ratchet

The End and the Beginning
Trying to focus on having fun helps, yeah.

Unironically tho there are ppl there already having high hopes for me and the fact that there’s expectations at all make me feel obligated to meet them.
I kinda hate that I’m like this. It’s so easy to fall into these painful traps
I think everyone would understand that their high hopes should not be coming at your expense. And if they do, they're in the wrong.
 
Just so I don’t get 1upped by Flower and CW quitting mafia here, I just want to write this random post to maybe clarify some things since I think I’ve come to a realization.

My mental health sucks and there isn’t much I do that improves it or makes me happy. I spend a lot of time in my room alone cuz I can’t find the motivation or a reason to leave, and so a lot of my time is spent online and rotting in bed in a dark room. And so when a mafia game starts and I don’t have irl stuff to do I’ll just camp thread all day since at least it’s people to talk to and something to do. The issue with this is mafia becomes the only thing I do some days and therefore my entire potential source of happiness for the day. So if I lose, losing just becomes another woe in my already existing list of woes. And if I win, idk. I’m usually dead so I don’t feel like I earned it or that I could’ve won better so I end up feeling indifferent. It’s been a mystery for a while why I felt this way until losing 3 games in a row to afk mafia teams made me really consider why losing would make me literally cry and ruin the rest of my day and leave me bitter and angry and toxic. I will admit I outted from all my games in a fit of rage but I’m gonna stand by my decision to end with champs since the FOMO and regret prevent me from 100% quitting. But currently mafia is a net negative for me despite how great the people are and I really am not in a good spot to continue playing. I need to be playing this when I have time to kill and other sources of joy / less sources of pain, not when I’m close to rock bottom and continuing to dig down. I really fear that if I keep going I’m just going to become more and more angry and toxic, to the point where I’ll become unrecognizable from the player ppl have enjoyed playing against.

There are probably a few more games I’ll play due to FOMO or addiction or whatever, but the main decision here is to quit and attempt to work on myself. It has been great to meet and play with u all but like I really just can’t commit

Completely unrelated but I think ppl who get banned on MU flock to OLF and WG to get their fix

But anyway pls reach out if u want to chat since I love talking and I’m very alone

But don’t tempt an addict with a new mafia game pls and ty

Bye for now. Maybe I’ll be better in the future
me reading this post online while rotting in bed in a dark room after playing mafia when i woke up


but seriously tho, i hope u feel better soon
i also felt very similar abt mafia as u a couple yrs back
started just thinking abt it diff ig, stopped caring abt the outcome much and more just the act of talking to and playing with other ppl
if i wanted to win all the time there r probs other games i could play that requires less collaboration with others and r easier
thats how i think of it anyway

as a personal example, last august i was at one of my lowest points
wasnt leaving my room at all, barely eating and sleeping
not calling my family/friends/anyone
disappeared with no warning from my job
i dont think i spoke a single word out loud for several days
was going to end things lol
fuji's weebs game was literally the only thing keeping me lmao
although i clashed a ton with some players during it, it was genuinely my entire and only source of happiness for that period of time
but despite it all, i dont remember the outcome of the game
i just remember the memories i made and the ppl i talked to

perhaps this way of thinking might help u as it helped me?
 
But at least for me I want to try to make my personal happiness as independent of the events in my life as possible so that even if anything bad happens (ie I get dunked on or ignored) I’m still ok and not devastated. I also assume there’s like better ways for emotion regulation and better ways to cope with negative stuff, but honestly in the lens that I’m in a ton of mental pain all the time, I don’t think I’m overreacting when something bad happens cuz like dealing with a lot of pain long term really wears me down and making that pain worse makes me upset (so crying/being frustrated feels like a normal response to being in a ton of pain).
what do u find fun abt mafia?

those kinds of bad things happen every game tbh so they should not be the biggest driving factor on how u feel while playing/after playing the game
also most in-game stuff is never personal so maybe that is important to keep in mind
 

Worst

Custom title
Trying to focus on having fun helps, yeah.

Unironically tho there are ppl there already having high hopes for me and the fact that there’s expectations at all make me feel obligated to meet them.
I kinda hate that I’m like this. It’s so easy to fall into these painful traps
You better meet the expectations Cryo or i swear!!



But jokes aside bro, it sounds to me like you're just using Mafia as a way to not get involved in something else that could be good for you, so it doesn't seem like Mafia itself is your real issue, you're just using it as an escape hatch, u just have to figure out what really triggers you to escape into Mafia rather than doing what could give you more joy and improve your mental health ( like finding more hobbies etc, i mean we have hobbies mainly for our mental health, that's the whole point of them xD )


Ultimatelly, i've asked my trusty lawyer to review this retirement contract to give you a good incentive to quit ( this is absolutelly legally binding and you'll have to pay a massive fine if you break it )

CONTRACT OF EMOTIONAL RETIREMENT FROM ONLINE MAFIA WITH ADDICT CLAUSE AND SADGIRL PROVISIONS


Date: June 1, 2025
Location: The Last Mafia Thread You'll Ever See Me In (Hopefully)


Parties:


Party A: Hereinafter referred to as “Crying bc no Cryo,” a soul entangled in the bittersweet tendrils of online Mafia addiction, melancholy reflection, and the existential absence of someone named “Cryo.” Known for passionate gameplay, emotional investment, and tragic exits that leave half the player base crying too.


Party B: Hereinafter referred to as “The Online Mafia Community,” the beloved chaos circus of bluff, betrayal, and backstabbing, which Party A has both adored and emotionally spiraled within.



WHEREAS:


  • The Online Mafia Community provides a digital stage for psychological warfare disguised as entertainment.
  • Party A has participated in said warfare with vigor, vulnerability, and vengeful tears.
  • Recent events have led Party A to realize that Mafia, once a haven, has become a vortex of stress, sadness, and unrelenting FOMO.
  • Party A now seeks to remove themselves from this cycle, citing their mental health, emotional burnout, and the devastatingly ironic fact that the game “Mafia” is making them feel murdered inside.


NOW, THEREFORE, in recognition of this moment of introspection, and with full awareness of Party A’s tendencies toward relapsing into mafia threads like a moth to a very toxic flame, the parties agree as follows:


1. Complete (but Tender) Withdrawal

Party A, “Crying bc no Cryo,” hereby solemnly agrees to cease active participation in any and all future games of “Mafia” organized by Party B, effective immediately, except in scenarios outlined under the Addict Clause (Clause 6).

2. Acknowledgement of Emotional Spiral

Party A openly admits that Mafia has become an emotional crutch, a hit of dopamine laced with salt and forum tears. Party A acknowledges crying over games, rage quitting, and typing sad posts at 2am while whispering “why does Cryo never show up anymore.”

3. No Temptation Zone

Party B is hereby forbidden from sending invites, pings, or creating game threads with enticing titles such as “Turbo,” “Championship,” or “Cryo Returns.” Tempting an addict is punishable by deep sighs and passive-aggressive status messages.

4. Mental Health Clause

Party A affirms their intention to prioritize mental health over mafia wins, thread drama, and self-destructive ISO loops. Party B agrees to support this by not guilt-tripping Party A with nostalgia, inside jokes, or GIFs from legendary scumreads.

5. Penalty for Premature Return

Should Party A rejoin a Mafia game outside of permitted exceptions, a penalty of one (1) massive wave of regret and self-loathing shall be incurred, payable immediately in the form of a tearful DM to a mutual friend and a 4-paragraph rant in Discord.

6. Addict Clause: The “Slip-up Games” Provision

Notwithstanding Clause 1, Party A may, under strictly limited conditions, participate in up to three (3) future Mafia games, to be played under the influence of:


  • FOMO Withdrawal Symptoms
  • A Desperate Need to Be Perceived
  • The Rumor That Cryo Might Finally Show Up
    These games are classified as “Temporary Relapse Matches” and must be declared publicly as such. Emotional consequences are to be borne fully by Party A. After the third relapse, the original terms of this contract resume in full.
7. Open DMs Forever Clause

Despite this retirement, Party A requests that the community keep reaching out for conversation, memes, or venting — but not mafia invites. Party A is lonely, not reckless.



IN WITNESS WHEREOF, the parties acknowledge the weird intimacy of online mafia friendships and the legitimacy of emotional burnout. They hereby sign this contract on the aforementioned date, with love, exhaustion, and the hope for healing.


Signed:
Party A: [ @Crying bc no Cryo SIGN HERE ]
Party B: The Online Mafia Community


🖊️ "This is not goodbye. This is just a ‘pls don’t ping me unless it’s about Cryo.’”
 
me reading this post online while rotting in bed in a dark room after playing mafia when i woke up


but seriously tho, i hope u feel better soon
i also felt very similar abt mafia as u a couple yrs back
started just thinking abt it diff ig, stopped caring abt the outcome much and more just the act of talking to and playing with other ppl
if i wanted to win all the time there r probs other games i could play that requires less collaboration with others and r easier
thats how i think of it anyway

as a personal example, last august i was at one of my lowest points
wasnt leaving my room at all, barely eating and sleeping
not calling my family/friends/anyone
disappeared with no warning from my job
i dont think i spoke a single word out loud for several days
was going to end things lol
fuji's weebs game was literally the only thing keeping me lmao
although i clashed a ton with some players during it, it was genuinely my entire and only source of happiness for that period of time
but despite it all, i dont remember the outcome of the game
i just remember the memories i made and the ppl i talked to

perhaps this way of thinking might help u as it helped me?
First off, I’m sorry to hear that and I’m glad u recovered

But idk if I can just flip a switch and stop caring about the results esp when a lot of my feelings are reaction based

Like part of the reason I can’t treat mafia like a game is cuz I’m already abusing it as a bad coping mechanism. Maybe I can take this advice when I’m in a better state of mind but probably not in this impulsive state
 
what do u find fun abt mafia?

those kinds of bad things happen every game tbh so they should not be the biggest driving factor on how u feel while playing/after playing the game
also most in-game stuff is never personal so maybe that is important to keep in mind
I like talking to ppl and I like attempting to piece the mystery together but I haven’t really thought about it. I think I’ve been abusing mafia longer than I thought

Also you’re right that the in game stuff happens every game but the more I decline the more they hurt
 
You better meet the expectations Cryo or i swear!!



But jokes aside bro, it sounds to me like you're just using Mafia as a way to not get involved in something else that could be good for you, so it doesn't seem like Mafia itself is your real issue, you're just using it as an escape hatch, u just have to figure out what really triggers you to escape into Mafia rather than doing what could give you more joy and improve your mental health ( like finding more hobbies etc, i mean we have hobbies mainly for our mental health, that's the whole point of them xD )


Ultimatelly, i've asked my trusty lawyer to review this retirement contract to give you a good incentive to quit ( this is absolutelly legally binding and you'll have to pay a massive fine if you break it )
I love this contract

But also did u think I was a girl this whole time???
 
@Alexis2282AE Crowned Witch has been banned in Worstgen and she will not be allowed to participate in the Mafia Universe Championship. You will be replacing Crowned Witch and will be participating in the Championship. Your Mafia Universe Championship game will be starting on June 9 at 3pm EDT which will be next week on Monday. You will have to let the organizers know on the Mafia Universe Championship Season 12 General Thread that you will be replacing Crowned Witch.
 

Ratchet

The End and the Beginning
@Alexis2282AE Crowned Witch has been banned in Worstgen and she will not be allowed to participate in the Mafia Universe Championship. You will be replacing Crowned Witch and will be participating in the Championship. Your Mafia Universe Championship game will be starting on June 9 at 3pm EDT which will be next week on Monday. You will have to let the organizers know on the Mafia Universe Championship Season 12 General Thread that you will be replacing Crowned Witch.
Is that a rule? I didn't know that she would be forced replaced.
 

Rej

Holy Simp
@Alexis2282AE Crowned Witch has been banned in Worstgen and she will not be allowed to participate in the Mafia Universe Championship. You will be replacing Crowned Witch and will be participating in the Championship. Your Mafia Universe Championship game will be starting on June 9 at 3pm EDT which will be next week on Monday. You will have to let the organizers know on the Mafia Universe Championship Season 12 General Thread that you will be replacing Crowned Witch.
Is that a rule? I didn't know that she would be forced replaced.
Isn't she unbanned before the game starts? Does it matter?
 
Is that a rule? I didn't know that she would be forced replaced.
I mean if you think about it logically, it doesn't make much sense that the user who represents a site would themselves be banned from said site.


To put it on the edge with a very extreme example; It wouldn't make a lot of sense if a jewish person was chosen to represent Germany during WWII
 
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