I understand and thank you, I appreciate that but I have to put myself first for a change. Being on here has caused me so much pain over the years and I keep thinking myself, why do I keep staying on here despite how much I get hurt? Am I masochistic?
Obviously I stay because of certain people like yourself too, I don't want to abandon you guys either but I can't put up with this anymore, I can't deal with these basement dwelling, toxic, incel users (I'll probs get my post removed for calling them incel again in the past but much more insulting posts towards me get left up lmfao) and I hae to do whats best for me for once in my life.
Sorry, but this is the breaking point
@ShiShiShi. History always repeats itself. Something makes me want to leave somewhere for good and I end up being glad I did ultimately but it usually comes too late and too much damage is done by then. It ends up being the best for me in the long run but I always leave it too late and wait until I'm given no choice, the nastiest provocations to leave in the first place.
Hell, when someone actually tried to murder me in a mental health support group I was part of and I emphasise murder as he tried to strangle me to death and almost didn't stop and almost succeeded in killing me too, do you know what that fuckin shitty group did? They blamed me and said I had it coming. They even covered up other assaults of other members, one which I was there for when it happened and made us stay silent about it. They even tried to blame girls who had been sexually abused/raped as making it up and implying they had it coming.
Thats what some of the people here are like too. Thats why I need to leave too. I can't be here anymore, its making me sick, like radiation, its toxic and its killing me slowly.
I'm used to being the bad guy with some people on here anyway so I'm not even bothered how they see me anymore, I'll get more insults thrown at me and them complaining about virtue signalling, being a karen or w/e, whilst they act like the most petulant manchildren I've ever seen in life.
If I don't leave now, I'll regret it even more and something will push me away regardless. It will only escalate until I do leave. I've learned that the hard way many times now. Oh FYI, the guy who attacked me too, had the same mentality as these guys too, coincidence? I don't think not. Who is it that goes around shooting innocent people in public many times and commit small genocides again? Who was it who shot a 3 year old girl with a shotgun over here in the UK? Oh yeah, guys like that!
If I don't get banned somehow, I'll try to set up ways to contact me off here with certain people who want it, but I'm leaving for good this time, no breaks, nothing, its permanent this time, I've had enough. I don't want to be here anymore regardless. I don't want to risk ending up like Jmena did because I'm suicidal myself and I know I will get pushed into doing similar behaviour if this keeps up enough. We already lost Jmena too and people like that scum attacking me now are part of the reason we did and that is also why I need to leave.
Some of you have shown you true colour here too as I responded to you before on here just now too. I don't want to associate with you either anymore, sorry. Some of you I'll gladly still associate with depending, some of you have done nothing wrong and are great, wonderful people who are better than me and make me want to be better too.
But for now, I'm going and I need to go for my own good, so sorry
@ShiShiShi . If I get the chance, Ill DM you a way to contact me me outside of here in a minute.
Makes absolutely no sense unless she is Godfy's Mom and a Tier 1 pirate like Big Mom
