Its time to reveal hidden depths about myself,but its an on-topic reply.
I have low-level autism in real life. This caused me problems during my childhood and growing up. These problems made me angry and sad about my life. My mother provided me with professional help,but i repressed these feelings and was uncooperative with several therapists when they tried to help me. During this time, i was a grumpy person who often had a sullen face and was rude to many people when they interacted with me.
It was during this time that i had my first account here on WG. This is why i behaved badly here and gained a reputation as a nasty user.
Sometime during 2017-2018,i reached my breaking point and snapped here at home. It was a sad event,but having hit rock bottom emotionally,so to speak,i did a lot of reflecting on what i wanted outside the pit. I reflected on my problems since childhood,what caused them ,what i wanted to change in my life and what i had to do to achieve that. So i started taking more action to solve my problems,and today my life is organized.
But the reputation i left on the forum as a rude and toxic user still lingers here. I know when you throw shit at people you should expect shit to be thrown back at you, but there's a reason it hurts me when users here remind me of how i used to be .
๐ ๐ ๐ Because of the problems caused by my autism,i was unable to build a circle of friends during my school life(There are details about this story,but i will not write it here so as not to make this post too long. I will tell this story in another suitable thread when i have the chance.). ๐ข ๐ข ๐ ๐ The fact that i never did any of the things people do with social connections during their school lives made me very sad when i finished school. When i read users remembering how i used to be, it reminds me of the times when i was a glum person.
But i don't want to be glum ever again. I want to be a fun-loving person with an open heart to all opportunities to do good things in life and create bonds with everyone.
I've evolved from the habit of using the ignore button on users who don't agree with my agendas. I don't even have agendas,as i'm not following any manga. Now i read and listen to everything anyone has to say peacefully. I have the desire to permanently erase the negative reputation i left during my previous account,but i don't know if i can do it. I haven't developed my social skills in real life yet, so improving the bad image of myself that i left with someone online is even harder than in real life. It pains me to think that somewhere,some people may always remember me as a rude idiot,without us ever having the chance to get to know each other properly.
I am currently looking to begin the phase of life where you take technical courses,and study at college and university. I had the idea of graduating from three different universities. This way,i can experience a new and longer phase of studies and make up for my bad school life.
@Just a member @Fuckthis3 @Topi Jerami @Yoho
@Mathias @mly90 @Bisoromi Bear @Peroroncino
@NikaInParis @Devilbat @RayanOO
@AL sama @Rukusho @Medeia @nik87
@The White Crane @Cross_Marian @MonochromeYoru
@Roo @Monkey D. Luffy @ZenZu
@Nidai_Kitetsu
I have low-level autism in real life. This caused me problems during my childhood and growing up. These problems made me angry and sad about my life. My mother provided me with professional help,but i repressed these feelings and was uncooperative with several therapists when they tried to help me. During this time, i was a grumpy person who often had a sullen face and was rude to many people when they interacted with me.
It was during this time that i had my first account here on WG. This is why i behaved badly here and gained a reputation as a nasty user.
Sometime during 2017-2018,i reached my breaking point and snapped here at home. It was a sad event,but having hit rock bottom emotionally,so to speak,i did a lot of reflecting on what i wanted outside the pit. I reflected on my problems since childhood,what caused them ,what i wanted to change in my life and what i had to do to achieve that. So i started taking more action to solve my problems,and today my life is organized.
But the reputation i left on the forum as a rude and toxic user still lingers here. I know when you throw shit at people you should expect shit to be thrown back at you, but there's a reason it hurts me when users here remind me of how i used to be .
๐ ๐ ๐ Because of the problems caused by my autism,i was unable to build a circle of friends during my school life(There are details about this story,but i will not write it here so as not to make this post too long. I will tell this story in another suitable thread when i have the chance.). ๐ข ๐ข ๐ ๐ The fact that i never did any of the things people do with social connections during their school lives made me very sad when i finished school. When i read users remembering how i used to be, it reminds me of the times when i was a glum person.
But i don't want to be glum ever again. I want to be a fun-loving person with an open heart to all opportunities to do good things in life and create bonds with everyone.
I've evolved from the habit of using the ignore button on users who don't agree with my agendas. I don't even have agendas,as i'm not following any manga. Now i read and listen to everything anyone has to say peacefully. I have the desire to permanently erase the negative reputation i left during my previous account,but i don't know if i can do it. I haven't developed my social skills in real life yet, so improving the bad image of myself that i left with someone online is even harder than in real life. It pains me to think that somewhere,some people may always remember me as a rude idiot,without us ever having the chance to get to know each other properly.
I am currently looking to begin the phase of life where you take technical courses,and study at college and university. I had the idea of graduating from three different universities. This way,i can experience a new and longer phase of studies and make up for my bad school life.
@Just a member @Fuckthis3 @Topi Jerami @Yoho
@Mathias @mly90 @Bisoromi Bear @Peroroncino
@NikaInParis @Devilbat @RayanOO
@AL sama @Rukusho @Medeia @nik87
@The White Crane @Cross_Marian @MonochromeYoru
@Roo @Monkey D. Luffy @ZenZu
@Nidai_Kitetsu
