Uncle Van

Bullets don't hurt. But Taxes do.
Sure. Can't do them.

I have 0 motivation
I'm unable to concentrate.
I'm unable to put myself into creative related or difficult task more than 20 min unless I have a spike of motivation
I'm unable to move from my place
I'm unable to take a walk
I'm unable to take care of my environment
I'm unable to follow my dream
I see no one

But hey.. if that's because I don't really want to, I guess you just fixed my mental handicap.

Ableist piece of work.
To be honest with you, this all sounds like bullshit given how much effort you put into your Carrot and political agendas. You had thr most posts in the Nakama thread in record time, had other online accounts dedicated to Carrot, had a blog dedicated to her, giant essays, and is always condescending and preachy. That sounds very motivated.

Granted, how should I know whats really going on in someone's life, but your supposed mental illness is in direct conflict with your actions for 3 years now.
 
The lack of motivation is called laziness. You think I am motivated to go to work? No but if I want to eat and live I have to.
Obviously you don't need to work to put food on your table or to pay the rent so I understand the lack of motivation in this instance.
Motivation is a chemical reaction that can be triggered with time for instance, but the level of lack of motivation among people who are seriously mentally ill cannot be seen as mere « placebo » effect. You can’t compare the motivation of the person who has the best grades and the ones who are mediocre with someone that is mentally ill
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To be honest with you, this all sounds like bullshit given how much effort you put into your Carrot and political agendas. You had thr most posts in the Nakama thread in record time, had other online accounts dedicated to Carrot, had a blog dedicated to her, giant essays, and is always condescending and preachy. That sounds very motivated.

Granted, how should I know whats really going on in someone's life, but your supposed mental illness is in direct conflict with your actions for 3 years now.
This is silly to argue that you can’t lack motivation due to the amount of posts on a manga forum
 
How do you sustain yourself with food?
I order mostly

Do you go around in real life telling people you have a mental illness ?
No, we are in a particular case here where I'm being forced to explain myself, but usually I avoid the subject unless I have to present my life. That said, I'm not ashamed of what I have. This is something that happens TO me, not because OF me. And if it can help people understand that sometimes, no matter how hard you want something, you just can't do it, its a good thing.


The lack of motivation is called laziness. You think I am motivated to go to work? No but if I want to eat and live I have to.
Obviously you don't need to work to put food on your table or to pay the rent so I understand the lack of motivation in this instance.
You just fixed my mental illness, thank you captain liberal !


To be honest with you, this all sounds like bullshit given how much effort you put into your Carrot and political agendas.
You are starting to understand why I want to make this place a better and safe place for people in difficulty. Speaking about politics and speaking about One Piece are - as of today - the two things that keeps me afloat. Simply because those things trigger my motivation to a high level. This is why I was able to do the leftist library and why I'm so proud of it.

That sounds very motivated.
In a way, it was. Don't confuse the lack of motivation I'm describing, with a lack of will. I could die for some of the things I want, but...

Remember this moment ?


This is how I am and feel every damn day.

Imagine that me typing on this forum is Luffy drinking tea. That's not what I want to do, but that's the only thing I CAN do, that's the only thing I'm motivated to do. And it doesn't always happen. Replying to one guy is fine, but when I need to put work into my posts, I can let the tab open for days before I actually reply or say something here. If the motivation is not there, its simply not there.

So, since I can't use those sparks of motivation to do anything but write here, I'm using them pro-actively to sharpen my understanding of narration and the political world. Which is why you saw me make giant essays (sometimes explaining to people why they were wrong) or you saw me make big thread about politic. Replying, especially when I need to make researches to do so, helps me navigate myself and my understanding of the things I love. That's why I've always explained that the first target of my posts here was me first, you second.

Again, do not confuse a lack of motivation with a lack of will. I will use ALL the motivation I have in order to check my objectives in life. If I could have a life right now, right there, I would trade it for hell.
 
I have 0 motivation
I'm unable to concentrate.
I'm unable to put myself into creative related or difficult task more than 20 min unless I have a spike of motivation
I'm unable to move from my place
I'm unable to take a walk
I'm unable to take care of my environment
I'm unable to follow my dream
While I’m sure you have some mental illness

These seem more like self fulfilling limiting beliefs, as opposed to a legitimate handicap.

The lack of motivation to do things does not only impact the ability to work, it impacts everything.
Like from this it sounds like the reason you are “unable to take walks” isn’t because you are physically disabled but rather because you lack motivation.

if this is the case then you’re not really “unable” to do anything. Rather you just choose not to do anything because you don’t feel motivated.

There is a difference between that and being physically unable to do something.

I am missing a couple of fingers due to a birth defect. I cannot use chopsticks effectively. I can’t just grow more fingers.

But you can force yourself to take care of your responsibilities. And if you have depression, which your posts suggest, you can medicate and go to therapy.
 
To be honest with you, this all sounds like bullshit given how much effort you put into your Carrot and political agendas. You had thr most posts in the Nakama thread in record time, had other online accounts dedicated to Carrot, had a blog dedicated to her, giant essays, and is always condescending and preachy. That sounds very motivated.

Granted, how should I know whats really going on in someone's life, but your supposed mental illness is in direct conflict with your actions for 3 years now.
Eh it could be something like adhd. People with adhd have minimal problems completing task in stuff they hyper focus on. It’s anything outside of that they struggle with
 
While I’m sure you have some mental illness

These seem more like self fulfilling limiting beliefs, as opposed to a legitimate handicap.
I don't think you understand how much I would love for it to be the case. If beliefs only was responsible for my state.. how easy it would be to just.. snap out of it.


Like from this it sounds like the reason you are “unable to take walks” isn’t because you are physically disabled but rather because you lack motivation.
1. This is not a physical disability but a psychic/mental one
2. The lack of motivation IS the disability. Its a lack of creation of dopamine (at least that what doctors and specialists are telling me).


if this is the case then you’re not really “unable” to do anything. Rather you just choose not to do anything because you don’t feel motivated.
Technically you are not wrong. I COULD do all those thing if I had enough motivation and sometimes I do. But most of the time, I do not. My battle is to gain that motivation back. Because there was a time where I was not like that.


But you can force yourself to take care of your responsibilities. And if you have depression, which your posts suggest, you can medicate and go to therapy.
I went through depression. I know how it feels. This is different.


Eh it could be something like adhd.
I checked with my psychiatrist but no, its not adhd. Those people usually can do things. They are not paralyzed by their motivation.
 
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@Logiko I am not a mental health professional but I struggle with ADHD. My ADHD impacts my executive dysfunction. I struggle with figuring out what my first task should be. I also struggle with organizing my thoughts and home. My dopamine comes from providing for my family. I also like rewarding myself with something I enjoy after I do something that I have to do.

Anyways this post was suppose to have a point, but I lost it along the way. I hope you are able to identify why and how you lost your motivation. I also hope you are able to find treatment to help you get yourself back together.
 
@Logiko I am not a mental health professional but I struggle with ADHD. My ADHD impacts my executive dysfunction. I struggle with figuring out what my first task should be. I also struggle with organizing my thoughts and home. My dopamine comes from providing for my family. I also like rewarding myself with something I enjoy after I do something that I have to do.

Anyways this post was suppose to have a point, but I lost it along the way. I hope you are able to identify why and how you lost your motivation. I also hope you are able to find treatment to help you get yourself back together.
Thanks :)

Courage and strenght to you ! ADHD seems to be exhausting.

For my part a treatment is underway, we are trying to figure things out. It takes time, but I'm optimistic.

:moonwalk:
 
Thanks :)

Courage and strenght to you ! ADHD seems to be exhausting.

For my part a treatment is underway, we are trying to figure things out. It takes time, but I'm optimistic.

:moonwalk:
ADHD is tough. I was diagnosed as an adult, so I learned coping skills as a child and teenager. A lot of my coping skills are relying on my family and friends. As well as physical movement. All my life I felt like I was missing pieces of myself whereas everyone else was put together. I have learned to be empathetic because everyone is struggling with something in their lives.
 

Uncle Van

Bullets don't hurt. But Taxes do.
Eh it could be something like adhd. People with adhd have minimal problems completing task in stuff they hyper focus on. It’s anything outside of that they struggle with
Meh I've learned a long time ago to take everything he says with a grain of salt given his history of making stuff up and changing definitions. Like is it real mental illness or did he change the criteria to self diagnose or something. Whatever. I can go only go by his words and actions like everyone else.
 
All my life I felt like I was missing pieces of myself whereas everyone else was put together.
I understand that. I remember feeling the same before my own diagnosis. I thought that I was just extremely lazy and I was beating myself up because of it.

I have learned to be empathetic because everyone is struggling with something in their lives.
:sweat:

Meh I've learned a long time ago to take everything he says with a grain of salt given his history of making stuff up and changing definitions.
Any example ?

Like is it real mental illness or did he change the criteria to self diagnose or something.
Maybe you should start looking at me for who I am and not what you think I am because of your biases.
 
@Logiko is your lack of motivation the problem or is it a symptom of the problem?
It SEEMS to be the problem, but my doctor is not completely 100% sure yet since I have a hard time recovering (but at the same time, I lived with that for 1 and a half decade and it was just strong in the last 10 years so it might be the reason why its so long to repair).

I always thought lack of motivation wasn’t a mental illness but a symptom of depression, anxiety, or ptsd.
It can be a symptom of all those things indeed. but in my case it seems to be the core problem.
 

Uncle Van

Bullets don't hurt. But Taxes do.
Any example ?


Maybe you should start looking at me for who I am and not what you think I am because of your biases.
This has nothing to do with personal biases but objective facts. Once again, who am I to assume what goes on in your life? I don't know a thing except what you say and do here. You've objectively made up and changed definitions with you justifying it by saying language evolves and textbook definitions are outdated. You objectively(and admitted) lack knowledge on history and economics yet talk down to people about it. You're objectively a massive hypocrite by definition. You've objectively annoyed women and minorities, left wing and all, also groups you claim you try to help, to the point they ban together with jackasses to get you removed from topics. You objectively come off as delusional by shifting blame to everyone else for not understanding your personal terms.

All these objective facts lead me to initially doubt your mental illness. If someone with 3 assault charges swear he didn't commit the next assault, obviously I'd doubt him based on evidence even though he could 100% be telling the truth. I still have no way of knowing that.
 
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