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Brother it's time to chill and be peace with your self.
All the hate brings nothing to anybody, especialy for you. All this toxicity is harming your well being, friends and family will turn on you, leave you because you have so much hate, anger and spite and you can't controll it. Seek profisionel help until it is too late. If you keep it, if you stay on this path you will be end up all alone and miserable. No friends, no family, no job, no life.
I know you have problems in your life, we all have problems, but is time to stop, time to selfreflect on your actions and behaviour and is time to get professional help.