I've been thinking about this since the alert popped up on my notifications. I haven't been here long, but I recognised Jmena's name and posts. I hope he's in a better place. Bear with me as I am pretty drunk right now.
Life is long, life is hard, life isn't easy. Many of us have probably had suicidal thoughts, but are yet to act them out. For some reason, it hits me harder when I see posts like this on forums like WorstGen because we all do have a level of camaraderie and meme around a lot. We forget there's another human behind the screen, wherever they are in the world, whatever their situation. I appreciate that we have the ability to connect across the world like this, and that I am alive today. But the cost is we also hear about the experiences we're all going through. I think this is an overall good, however painful it may be. I think it is what ultimately unites us as humans.
There's been a few posts here mentioning if you've had suicidal thoughts, to "seek help". I've had people I know in real life die by suicide, even younger than Jmena. I grieve for them, but I can sometimes understand why they got that deep into the thought process. Sometimes, being told you're "sick and need help" is the last thing you need. We all go through fucked up experiences that torture us, torment us, haunt us with every breath we take. I wish I could say there's an answer or a reason to keep moving forward, but ultimately we may not realise there is. That makes me sad, that that is a thought we have as humans. It may be unique to us. But what can we do, other than to remember those who left too early, that were so traumatised they felt like it was the only choice.
I hope this doesn't come across as insensitive, but as someone who understands the feeling of being suicidal, and is probably older than most people on here, it's made me reflect inwardly. One Piece is maybe one of two reasons I keep sticking through life everyday, and it affects me quite a lot hearing news of people from this forum dying too soon.
Rest in peace, Jmena. You were awesome, and you will be remembered.