Rest in peace man. Imagine the pain his dad felt typing this.....heartbreaking.
Just a bit over two weeks ago i heard that a young guy i saw walking down the street took his life a day later. Couldn't believe it. The Kid was smiling and greeting people.
Fuck all the people that are telling you you're not hard working, smart and successful enough.
Amen man. If I were to really get candid, I was even talking to this with my therapist yesterday, the whole reason I lack self esteem is because my "wonderful" family continually told me I was lazy, that I never tried hard enough, that I was spoiled and didn't deserve what I had. Ironically, I was working my ass off to the point I have severe mental and physical health problems now. I've almost collapsed multiple times. But because I wasn't "successful" and didn't get rich, married etc, I was the black sheep, the outcast, the donkey of the family or w,e the shame of the family.
So, that led me to feeling suicidal, especially when they would constantly gang up on me and demonise me, treating me like some kind of punching bag for their own personal grievances/spite.
Thank you for that last line, I really needed to hear that personally, to have someone say that. The ones who kept me calling lazy were gone like the wind when the chips were down, when I or others needed help, they were nowhere to be seen but as soon as shit went a little south for them, they screeched to the heavens that they're alone, nobody cares, nobody helps them when we did so much shit for them. My ex is a prime example, don't even get me started there.
But anyway thats offtopic too, another time and place.
That story about that guy, holy fuck...thats messed up. But as someone said here just now, the happiest people can often be the saddest and in most pain and I can vouch from personal experience that is extremely true. I saw proof of that with Chester Bennington (who was really happy, friendly and such in-person and in interviews) and especially Robin Williams and both of them unfortunately took their own lives too.
Goes to show, no matter how happy someone looks on the outside, you can never tell how much they're really suffering unless they draw back the curtains and actually show you.
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Well, all I'm gonna say is that if I ever wind up dying, certain people here will rejoice.
Even if thats true, at least some of us won't be rejoicing but doing the opposite, like we're doing for Jmena. We'll definitely be grieving for you too if we lose you too. Hell I was upset when you deleted your account, like with Yaser, but I'm so glad both of you came back!