Finally back from work now I can make my statement here.
First the nasty thing. @oddoddfruit you shouldn't have brought up the slandering from the past. I apologized to you in honest manners and all you did was trying to lecture me and then ban me from the Mugiwara server. Secondly as soon as you saw my name on the sign up list you should have prepared yourself. You bringing this up just shows how butthurt you became cuz of it. Your reputation wasn't even in danger the only one with a slandered name is me and I am the only person allowed to say this. I won't apologize again it's your turn to make out of it what you'd like. You also don't need to reply to this, it's over as it is, it's done. Sayonara!
Secondly, the only persons that truly deserve an apologize are @novaselinenever and @Dragomir .
I again burnt out in a novas game and that is maybe the only shameful thing. Because the great job those two have done, did not deserve to be dirtied by toxicity. Anyway this is part of my legacy, same as MUUGEN carries his legacy, I carry my own legacy with me.
So about my gameplay itself, I don't care what people think, I was salty and especially depressed after I got janitor killed.
I reserved a role 1.5 years ago and this was the first time in my 2 years of mafia where I reserved a role just to be killed N1 for pretty personal reasons, I don't want to dig into it because it doesn't deserve any debate. It was just poor.
I was hyped for this game since I helped building this mafia section and we all knew this game will be a thing + a huge success. I sadly could not be a part of the game which was the reason I was triggered. It was especially painful when Drago and novas refused to give me informations because I was still eligible for revive and this was actually the most toxic thing, knowing that I won't be revived anyway because of janitoring while holding one of the strongest roles in the game in my hands, a role that literally pops up in late game like crazy + a role that had the potential to be the biggest meme role in the history of Weeb games.
I think novas and Drago fairly had to deal with me and others too because I had no fun all in all even if I tried my best.
The best part for me still was looking at write ups and looking at role flips while I stopped caring for the game. I even "subbed out" after N5 or so making me not eligible for revives, just so I could atleast have joy in watching novas' and Dragos' work to carry fruits.
Imma tell now what I told others just rephrasing it for clarity, I just kept up playing mafia here so I could be warmed up for this game, with a bit of disappointment D0 ofc. I will now take a break from here until I host my upcomming game and depending on my mood I might get motivated to play a game here and there and return favours. But I really want to be playing less in future, or atleast with different people so no heat gets stored that could cause more drama. I also won't play the next Weeb game because of it, because I would just start slandering again. I see myself as a better host than player, my game understanding is better suited for hosting and supporting people with ideas and help rather than entering baseless discussions that will end up in another baseless discussion. I am not shaped up for this because I always end up having the biggest target on my back.
I hope my upcomming game will not flop, because my dream is improving as a host and inspire people with good gameplay. Tho my name is slandered and it worries me if people will sign up for play, especially after my last Wano game got pretty much rigged by modkills and sub outs. I was still proud of hosting the active players and I was very very proud of having MUUGEN in my game!
Whenever I host imma get some legends to play my game and make it enjoyable and fundamentally everytime a "fresh experience" for the players. I hope people will give it and give me a chance in future!
All in all I love this community, else I wouldn't be here, being just a guy here it's hard to show how much I like the mafia players and hosts here, I am just a person that always holds back this feelings to act strong and rightous. I don't want people to think of me as an arrogant asshole. Yes I can be like that, but in the end noone wants to be an asshole, it sometimes is a result of what direction mankind is going on this world. That is why people need breaks and distance from time to time.
So imma give my all in future. Just wanted to let you guys know!
Rej over and out.
HAIL MUUGEN!
I have decided I wouldn't play much more myself because Mafia drains away from my real life but when you host I will play
