How do you sustain yourself with food?
I order mostly
Do you go around in real life telling people you have a mental illness ?
No, we are in a particular case here where I'm being forced to explain myself, but usually I avoid the subject unless I have to present my life. That said, I'm not ashamed of what I have. This is something that happens TO me, not because OF me. And if it can help people understand that sometimes, no matter how hard you want something, you just can't do it, its a good thing.
The lack of motivation is called laziness. You think I am motivated to go to work? No but if I want to eat and live I have to.
Obviously you don't need to work to put food on your table or to pay the rent so I understand the lack of motivation in this instance.
You just fixed my mental illness, thank you captain liberal !
To be honest with you, this all sounds like bullshit given how much effort you put into your Carrot and political agendas.
You are starting to understand why I want to make this place a better and safe place for people in difficulty. Speaking about politics and speaking about One Piece are - as of today - the two things that keeps me afloat. Simply because those things trigger my motivation to a high level. This is why I was able to do the leftist library and why I'm so proud of it.
That sounds very motivated.
In a way, it was. Don't confuse the lack of motivation I'm describing, with a lack of will. I could die for some of the things I want, but...
Remember this moment ?
This is how I am and feel
every damn day.
Imagine that me typing on this forum is Luffy drinking tea. That's not what I want to do, but that's the only thing I CAN do, that's the only thing I'm motivated to do. And it doesn't always happen. Replying to one guy is fine, but when I need to put work into my posts, I can let the tab open for days before I actually reply or say something here. If the motivation is not there, its simply not there.
So, since I can't use those sparks of motivation to do anything but write here, I'm using them pro-actively to sharpen my understanding of narration and the political world. Which is why you saw me make giant essays (sometimes explaining to people why they were wrong) or you saw me make big thread about politic. Replying, especially when I need to make researches to do so, helps me navigate myself and my understanding of the things I love. That's why I've always explained that the first target of my posts here was
me first, you second.
Again, do not confuse a lack of motivation with a lack of will. I will use ALL the motivation I have in order to check my objectives in life. If I could have a life right now, right there, I would trade it for hell.