Beautifully said man.
Also relating to what you said there, this is a MASSIVE spoiler for the X-Files but its a scene I extremely relate with somehow and took to heart extremely emotionally/personally:
I thought of it when you said that and I feel it fits Jmena as well as Kiri too. We knew Kiri was suffering physically in horrific ways at least, beyond what any person should have to, especially such a beautiful, wonderful, sincerely kind person like her and now we know Jmena was clearly tormented and suffering internally/mentally/emotionally etc too and also undeserved ofc.
In this scene, Mulder finds his missing sister who he has been searching for DECADES now IIRC, he joined the X-Files to try and find answers to the impossible mystery of her disappearance that seemed to be paranormal and was led on so many wild good chases and thus frrustrating, heartbreaking fakeouts too.
This episode was the much needed, eventual closure to the storyline and his character arc regarding her especially, when Mulders character finally got what he was agonisingly searching for.
His sister was dead all along and he finds her ghost here, leading to one of the most emotional scenes I've ever seen in any medium.
The amazing music by Moby really added to this scene too and it felt like Mulder was finally being set free from his lifelong obsession and never being able to move on from his sisters vanishing. He was being relieved of his duty finally, to finally complete the jigsaw puzzle and put his soul at ease.
He even says
"I'm fine, I'm free." which if you know the context of the line especially, the spoiler I mentioned, it makes it all the more hauntingly bittersweet and haunting is quite the word to use there too lol.
I chose my nickname Ghostly because of this scene, this storyline as well as other personal reasons and I like to think, maybe Jmena is still out there somewhere, theres some spirital remnant of him out there, much like how Simba met the ghost of his father in Lion King, maybe there's still something left of Jmena in this world or he will find a way to reach out to us via the ethereal realm from wherever he is now, especially Heaven hopefully!
I've seen a lot of death since childhood and the one thing that always hurts the most is, realising that person is gone and you're never gonna be able to see them again, to hear their voice, to talk to them, to touch and hold them etc. The obvious stuff. But when it sinks in, when you truly realise it thats it. Thats why I try to believe in ghosts regardless like many do. So that our memories and their/our shared posessions are not the only things reminding us of them, not the only remaining connections we have of them.
If I ever get a chance to speak to him again somehow, if there is a ghost of him out there or I see him again in another life/in Heaven or w/e, I'm gonna tell him we're so grateful for what he did for us and we were glad to have known him, that he was part of our lives. I really hope somehow, there is a way out there, no matter how long it takes to find it. If there is one impossible thing I wish humanity could accomplish, is to contact the dead and let us speak to them again, even if its just the one time. One last time to say goodbye, one last time to mend bridges/bonds and make peace, one last time to tell them what you needed to tell them and couldn't in time.
I think you guys can guess now that I take death very seriously too, in the sense that it affects me deeply and I hate speaking ill of the dead (at least generally) and believing in the impossible, things beyond our mortal, physical to metaphysical, whatever realm.
Like Mulder anyway, I like to think Jmena is finally "free" now of what burdened him and thus despite how he has left this world and how prematurely, he's at peace somehow and he won't suffer anymore.

X-Files is a hell of a fantastic show btw, some truly emotional, heavy writing and acting in places, absolutely masterful stuff. Much like Scrubs, Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul and anything else.
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This is so absolutely true too. My therapist was trying to drum this into my head yesterday too.
When I was happiest in life, I had goals, I had ambitions and I was exercising a LOT, its definitely not coindidence. When you take care of yourself, when you care about yourself, when you respect yourself, you will be happier for sure. Self care is extremely crucial for all of us.