Aight -- let me make this clear. I show emotions because facts mean nothing to people like you. Maybe an emotive argument will make you see something. People could talk about the dangers of transition, the suicide rate of transitioners (and not even due to "transphobia"). But you've convinced yourself that somehow your mental illness is your identity. So much that facts mean nothing because you've probably ruined friendships, burned bridges and decided to, or have, altered your body. It's easier to shut out those facts than emotions. You can just call the facts transphobic. But how can you, who has decided your identity based on emotions, argue for the lack of validity of other people's emotions? You can't without being a fucking hypocrite.
Woe is me? I've told many people my story and about how, even if I fucked up, my life is better in reality than the delusion of transition. I no longer have to care about passing being my reason to live. You're taking a snippet from me pouring my heart out, in actual compassion, as a way to paint me as some sort of neurotic individual.
The facts are simple. Transition "helps" nobody. It's a coping mechanism. It does not cure. If you're truly a woman or man in the opposite body, then no amount of hormones will change that. You cannot truly change your sex. You can't procreate the way you desire.
No, the only way to get better is to work on your issues, whatever those may be. I for one have lost patience now. You won't understand me, and that's okay. But I also think you're irrefutably wrong.