I feel like I make quite a lot of effort to remove subjectivity from anything I do as a mod here. I like to think I'm very transparent with almost everything. I tell you why you're getting a strike for instance and I share it with the community, I post the strikes to a public thread, I allow you to discuss it with me where relevant and the system in general is designed precisely to avoid me overreaching as a mod. That's why the strike system exists. I don't think any other site I've been on has been more transparent, actually. So I push back on this narrative. I really do believe I do more than what most section leads have done previously in terms of trying to be fair and open.
What I can't promise is that all subjectivity it removed. There is, inherently, judgement calls that need to be made. I've explained why I've made those calls to you many times over, about 4 separate times within a PM and many more times in public. At some point, if you disagree you disagree, you disagreeing does not require me to meet you halfway or compromise with you. Often times I will. When I first went to ban Flower a year or so ago, I said 6 months. The community told me that that was way too harsh, so I met them in a middle ground and went for 3 games, which came to about 2 months. And I further relaxed it so Flower could play an Ariess game because he had asked me to do so. I'm more than willing to work with people here.
But with Finalbeta, I cannot, my conscience will not allow it. You may think I'm being biased to victims or that I'm being performative, in the way a virtue signaller might be, but I have more experience with Finalbeta than most do here. I was running a mafia section (with two other people) on a site called MangaMaid, which was my first experience with Finalbeta. We ended up banning him there after giving him several chances. Then I went to TMF where he was, again, banned. He showed up on OPB where he was banned once again. I can't just sit there and tell people who might be very uncomfortable with him that he's a changed man and deserves another chance when yet again I see all the same hallmarks of the Finalbeta than I knew 8 years ago. I told you this in our PM convo and you've basically ignored it. That's fine, suits me actually. But you can't then imply I'm banning without giving due consideration or trying to be fair to people.
I can't tell women that they should just ignore Finalbeta, that the things he says that makes them feel like they're not safe here should just be ignored because it doesn't matter. I don't experience that stuff so all I have is my empathy. And maybe I don't have much of it but I have enough that I can't just ignore what they're telling me and give him yet another chance. I've seen it too many times. I feel like I'd be letting them down. I can only offer a pragmatic solution for him - that be that he plays elsewhere. I won't damage his ability to do that. I just don't want him here.