I spend most of my time under antidepressants because I couldn’t have hope anymore. If ever you have hope, use it to advance. It’s a great strengh you must keep.
When jmena was announced to be dead from suicide, I told in this thread that I would never kill myself because I have the feeling I was born for a reason. It’s not the case anymore. I still have projects but not the certitudes I was carrying years ago.
So if ever you suffer from things like this, try to heal before you reach the depht.