Nah, i don't really give a shit about that.
We're gonna die anyway, i'm not gonna stop myself from enjoying things because of a fear of dying. If it's my time to go, so be it.
I'm also not a future focused person, so i would rather enjoy the now and fuck the future.
I'm just very much an anti-social and introverted person.
Don't get me wrong, i really like talking and interacting with people that i'm close with, i just don't like doing that with strangers and crowds.
Of course you need to do that to get meet more people, it's the paradox, but fuck it, i'm glad with the people i have in my life right now.