Umm it's difficult to explain. I'll be brief on this.
weird parents > divorce > Constantly getting bullied in school > Got rejected due to looks > after graduating from school didn't went college and scared at this point to even join.
I'm just below average in terms on verything person and that's how I know how society treats those men's. Also being the reason why I'm rude and bitter , It's humanly impossible to not get rude by this point or don't know I'm just weird.
*Lmao i feel like using parents to justify my reasoning sounds like excuses*
I don't know if I have depression or not.