The problem is that you only made it 10 times worse.
That's called gaslighting. You are blaming the status of a toxic behavior on the "victim" rather than those who depicted those toxic behaviors.
In reality I've made nothing worse. The behavior that I faced and the radicalization of those threads (and those people as a group) that went in toxic mode was not my responsibility, but the ones of those who went in toxic mode. You can check back to the very start of my presence here. I've only did two type things from the very start:
- Explaining my reasonning (sometimes in lenght) on why I thought that people were mostly wrong about Carrot (nicely and -at worse- smugly)
- Calling out the toxic behaviors of others
Do you think that victims of toxic behaviors calling out toxic behaviors in people should be considered as "pourring fuel on the flames" ?
This is a process we can find everywhere in life. And this is something I'm facing just as much in the political thread...
When someone say horrible things like Bob did for ex in the political thread a few weeks ago.. Shouldn't those people be called out on their BS, toxicity and bigotry ? No ? Because that's what you are asking me not to do when you say that I shouldn't have "pourred fuel on the flames"...
Someone that is not toxic can't be touched by a call out and will therefore have no reaction... but toxic people or BSters, when they are called out, panic, and they get angrier. This is why you can see the number of page growing when I'm in a thread (no matter the thread). The reason is not that I have a bad take (even if it can be debatable) or because I write a lot (usually I make one very big single reply for everyone) the reason is that I'm usually replying to call out the BS, the toxicity or the bad take of someone and that someone usually can't stand the critic.
When there is a situation of toxicity, you don't stop the situation by calming the bully down slowly until they are finished taking down their last target, you stop them before they hurt too many people. I had no power to stop the toxicity here, so the only thing that I could do is make myself a big enough target so that other Carrot fans would be left alone. Sadly, the damage was already done long before I arrived and real Carrot fans were probably casted out of those discussions and what lasted were only Yamato fans, a few non sided people like you who followed the trendy wind of bullying and straight up Carrot haters. So I was left pretty much alone, which was actually a good thing as I was the only real voice of Carrot here, which gave me the freedom to explain a few concepts.
My problem is that at the time, I was not as politicized as I am now and I didn't understand really why those toxic behavior were enabled.. So I trusted mods to do something about the most problematic behaviors (which is why I called them out so much at first when I arrived).. We know what happened.. the mods actually sided with the wind of toxicity and targeted me as a result, banned me for bringing out the toxicity of others and banned me again from bringing out the political necessity of doing something.
What really happened there... I only realized a few month ago while talking in the political thread.
What I didn't realized at the time is the political compass of the staff.
- Why are some mods considering that a forum for Mangas shouldn't get a political thread ?
- Why are some mods considering that saying that Minks are just dumb animals is completely normal ?
- Why are some mods considering that trashing Carrot a feminine girl and praising another girl Yamato because of her having masculine attribute (while trashing her actual personnality) is not revealing of any sexist behavior ?
- Why are some mods considering that some form of transphobia are not acceptable but others are ?
- Why are some mods tickled by the action of someone politically labelling others ?
- Why are some mods considering that trashing repetitively on a poster can't be considered toxic and in some cases harrassment ?
- Why are some mods considering normal that posters insults each others here ?
- Why are some mods considering we shouldn't act on the spread of negativity on a forum ?
- Why are some mods considering that calling out the toxicity of other is synonymous of being ourselve toxic ?
Etc. Etc.
I had no answer to those questions when I arrived here. I wasn't even asking myself most of them. At the time, I was simply a storytelling lover defending a character I deemed interesting with a few very strong progressist values (lgbt / anti toxicity / Anti Trump / against sexism etc..), but my political compass was not as strong as it is now and there was a lot of things that I didn't understand about life.. and mostly why there is a difference between leftism and liberalism.
And I learned.. slowly, through a lot of sources and my own experience here... And I found out... that all those questions have one simple answer:
"Because that's how most structures of power in society see the world !"
The reality is that the staff of Worstgen is no different from anyother power structure in the western world. Its completely liberal, has a tiny bit conservative bias and a executive power that doesn't really take a strong side.
- Such a power structure will always tends to limit as much as possible the politization of debates in society to create the illusion of order and will therefore delegitimate any kind of politization of a subject or debate
- Such a power structure thinks that art is just art and a content to be enjoyed and can't accept that art is a political act and therefore can't accept the politization of a debate about a story and will therefore tend do everything to separate politic from art or the debate about political subject and the debate about the political in art in places talking about said art.
- Such a power structure consider toxicity as an individualistic behavior and not representative of a systemic problem. Therefore such a structure consider that it must act as little as possible into a conflict or issue and never question their actual own impact on such conflict or issue.
- Such a power structure are - again - believing that behaviors are individualistics, so they can't understand the systemic origins of oppressions such as racism or sexism and their analysis through the lens of the treatement of a fandom for the characters they read about in their stories.
- Because those power structure can't understand their own impact on the toxic behaviors of others, they will tend to turn against any individuals that questions their legitimacy, structure and (lack of) actions, thus sometimes siding with individual they are meant to stop.
- And most of ALL, such a power structure will prevent itself from having strong opinion or siding too much with people who fight the oppression in society in order to keep the illusion of a diverse and open structure of power.
Etc. Etc.
Everything is political.. and my error was to missunderstand this very basic principle when I got here. Which lead me to fight not only all the toxic behaviors here, but also the staff who turned (for the most part) against me for questionning their inaction.
I was just a bit too naive. I thought I was fighting toxic Yamato fans, but I was actually fighting something much bigger.
So.. again no. I did nothing wrong. I might have been a bit smug at time but what I did is only highlighting a problem that was already present from the beginning. A problem that is not only present in the fanbase but in the entire society.
Something that a few angry people like me are hoping to change.