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As if somebody verbalized my thoughts and said things I never knew how to say
We are in a negative loop that doesn't allow us any improvement. At least that's what it looks like from our point of view.
Meanwhile the world and life is running past us
Exactly... its a loop of things that are on constant repeat .. what happens is that your mind is so occupied in this loop of a comfort zone that you honestly are oblivious of changes, priorities, and obligations.. and when you get pushed out of this loop.. you wanna jump back into it.
whats haunting to me is that.. my demeanor here of such productive discussions about problems and other fruitful ones are a part of the loop
i find my self scrolling through random threads to start discussions, argue, debate... laugh...do random status posts.. just to fill in that need.. and if i don't i choose a substitute.. that is set of other shenanigans..
The loop doesn't defy productivity exactly point of it is.. to stir pointless reasonable discussions.. for me it keeps me away from my other priorities
ig i do have this complex of articulating my opinion as more reasonable ones (ofc imo) and being more reasonable in discussion instigates dopamine rush.. in a way its ego too.
whats worst is that if you have managed to step out of this loop.. you realize the amount of time you have on your hands but you haven't the determination to start something.. and usually you end up back in the loop
This loop is in essence is a magnet that instigates dopamine to keep you in a cycle of pointless goods and wicked habits... a state of stagnation.. or just down right devolution