Have you ever had to fight seriously in your life?
yes
If, yes did you won/lose/withdraw?
win
Could you avoid it? Was there a time when you were forced to do it?
thats why "had" is not a fitting word. I could have walked away I guess.
the other person started it by punching me in the face and I retaliated. it was not really a serious hit tbh, but I had a sport accident 3 days earlier where I hurt my nose. I almost broke it there. he tried to hurt me for real though. I just managed to reduce the damage by dodgeing/going backwards.
even so, when the guy hit me my nose started splurging blood like a volcane and I kind of snapped.
I beat him up pretty badly even though he did not hurt me that much. in my defense, I did not know this at that point. adrenaline and all. I thought he finally broke my nose.
several people had to restrain me because I did not stop even after he was on the ground.
in retrospect I feel miserable about the whole ordeal. not my proudest moment.
the following years I had several run ins with the same dude and each time left me feeling like a piece of shit.
does not matter if he started it or not, I was ready to hurt him more than I had any right to. to this day I am unsure at what point I would have stopped on my own. this still scares me.
well, we can not change the past so all I can take from this is that no matter how hard we try to tell ourselves that we are good people deep down we are all animals. some are just better at hiding that fact than others.